I am going to have to admit that I have a huge self esteem issue. Some days I love how I look, other days, I cringe at the sight of myself. I guess it all depends on what clothes I wear. I have a lot of pants that are too big on me so they make me look huge. I have 2 pairs of pants that fit perfectly, but I can't wear those everyday.
Randy and I seem to argue a lot and when it gets emotional on my part and not on his, it's my problem because I'm constantly feeling sorry for myself. I know that if I lose the weight, I will be a hell of a lot more happier in my skin. I was last summer......I was so happy then....:(
I have a lot of stress that relates to my fears of moving down to Florida with Randy and not knowing what the future is gonna be for us and my career. It down right scares me :(.
I just need to do something about my weight. Getting down to 150 lbs is something that I want so bad that I'm not being patient enough to wait for. I have to put work into it and if that means cutting out calories then that's what I'm gonna have to do. I might do 1000-1200 cals because I'm not very active. On days when I'm active, I'll eat 1200-1500 cals. Inside my Calorie King book, those calories were listed in there for women. I did not make those numbers up.
I'm gonna just incorporate fruits and veggies with every meal with a protein. That's more doable than the MWLC diet that I did last summer. I got down to my semi-goal weight in 3 months last year....this year is gonna take forever!! :( But hey, it's the healthy way :)
Take Care...:)
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Well a change is always scary. I know it has to freak you out to think of moving away from you family. You have to eat what you think will work for your body. I am totally on board w/ you and have a new mind set. We can do this!
Love ya
Christi
i can totally relate to the self esteem issue. it's hard to really be completely happy if you're unbearabley uncomfortable with your body. but i think you'll get it figured out, and you'll get down to 150. you know what you need to do :)
I know how you feel about the self esteem issue, I'm in a similar boat. Sometime I look at myself in the mirror and don't care b/c if anyone likes me it's b/c of who I am on the inside. Then other times I think I could be used by a gaint as a bobber on his fishing line.
The real reason I want to lose some weight is b/c of family history problems and b/c I sleep on my stumic so it hurts my back at times.
I understand that you have to be REALLY scared about moving to Florida, I'm the same way when I think about moving out b/c this house is all that I've ever known.
I know that you will get through this b/c you have me, Randy, Christi, Laura, and ...some other friends that I don't know...all here for you to help. :)
We'll help you get through this. *hugs*
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