:)

Nothing new to report except that I don't have to work again until Monday :) whoo hoo!!!

Oh and I was at work from 2:30 - 9:15 so that's why I ate dipstix twice...couldn't leave for anything else because I work alone :(

• Breakfast
• 2 eggbeater omelet w/ cheese: 2 pts
• slice of toast: 1 pt
• 1/2 banana: 0 pts
• Snack
• ice cream: 2 pts
• Lunch
• dipstix w/ cheese: 9 pts
• Dinner
• dipstix w/ cheese: 9 pts
• Snack
• Fiber One Bar: 2 pts
• ice cream: 2 pts
• Total: 27 pts/26 pts
• Weekly left: 21 pts
  

WW and Three Doors Down Concert

So, tonight was a blast! Randy had such a good time :) He looked like a little kid all excited :)..Anywho, we got lawn tickets and we picked a good spot. Unfortunately, you get the ones who like to smoke weed up there also and it's really hard to breathe!! You'd think with the wind it'd be okay, but no, it stunk and stunk bad. I have never ever smoked weed (and never will) and the smell was horrible!!! I had a deep down gut feeling that we should move and about 1/4 of the way into the Three Doors Down concert I said, "Randy, let's go now!". We move down to the end of the hill right at the walkway at DTE Energy Theater and stood for it and the smell was gone!! Randy got irritated at me because I was complaining so much about it and it kinda put him in a bad mood. But I really couldn't take that smell any longer :(. We found out it was right behind us a little bit up when we were on the lawn. Anywho, we're standing there for about 2 songs and this guy and girl come up to us and said, "Do you want these?" and she points down to where they were sitting. I said, "Are you giving them away?", she says, "We're leaving, here...". OMG, they were like 27 rows up in the pavilion.....my gut instinct turned into something great!!! Don't you just love it when that happens?? Randy's mood improved right away and he got to see his favorite band up close :) That made me happy too.

And, here's the food for today...I dipped into my weekly 35, but it was worth it...I ate the Pizza for dinner at like 5:45 pm and the McD's at 11:45 pm ....so yea..I was hungry!

• Breakfast
• 2 egg omelet w/ cheese: 2 pts
• slice of bread: 1 pt
• 1/2 banana: 0 pts
• Lunch
• Santa Fe Rice and Beans meal: 6 pts
• 2 tbsp light sour cream: 1 pt
• slice of cheese: 1 pt
• Snack
• Fiber One Bar: 2 pts
• Dinner
• Domino's Baby Pan pizza (individual 4 slices): 8 pts
• Snack
• Chocolate Dippin' Dots: 4 pts
• Late Evening Snack
• 2 cheeseburgers from McD's: 14 pts
  
• Total: 39 pts/26 pts
• Weekly left: 22 pts
• Water: Not sure, it was a lot...maybe 24 oz?? That's a lot for me!!
  

It was really a great food day for me. I thought it could have been way worse. Sure, I used some of my weekly points, but I can right?! Of course I can :) I love Weight Watchers :)

After looking at it, it's like a maintenance day for me if I was counting cals :) so yay!

Weight Watchers Day 2

Okay, so working while being on WW is not as bad as I thought :) Here's my day :)

• Breakfast
• 2 eggbeater omelet w/ ff cheese: 2 pts
• slice of bread: 1 pt
• 1/2 banana: 0 pts
• Snack
• 1 cup cantaloupe: 1 pt
• Lunch
• Smartones 3 cheese Ziti meal: 6 pts
• salad: 1 pt
• Snack
• Fiber One Bar: 2 pts
• Bologna sandwich w/ lettuce: 2 pts
• 1/2 cup cantaloupe: 0 pts
• Dinner
• DipStix (9): 7 pts
• Spicy Cheese: 2 pts
• Late Snack
• Sugar Free pudding cup: 1 pt
  
• Total: 25 pts/26 pts
• Water: 0.5 Liter

I think today went well besides my water intake. Well DUH! lol. I like WW and I'm hoping to be very successful while staying on plan. Tomorrow is the Three Doors Down concert featuring Staind, Finger Eleven, and Sic Puppies. I already know what I'm eating while I'm there so I will be using my Flex Points.

I am also a commenter on the message boards at www.dwlz.com where there is a chat room too. I'm on there :)

Weight Watchers Day 1

I'm feeling really good about starting Weight Watchers today. I have Christi to help me and me help her also. It's nice to have someone doing what you're doing.

Food for today:

• Breakfast
• 2 eggbeater omelet w/ ff cheese: 2 pt
• slice of toast: 1 pt
• 1/2 banana: 0 pt
• can of diet pepsi: 0 pt
  
• Snack
• 1 cup cantaloupe: 1 pt
• Lunch
• Smartones Ravioli meal: 5 pts
  
• small salad with light cheese and dressing: 1 pt
• can of diet pepsi: 0 pts
• Dinner
• Smartones Rice and Beans: 6 pts
  
• ff cheese slice: 1 pt
  
• 2 tbsp light sour cream: 1pt
• Snacks
• Fiber One bar: 2 pts
  
• 3 chocolate chip cookies: 4 points
• Water
• 20 oz. haha!
  

• Total: 24 pts/26 pts

Today was a really great first day on plan. I feel really good about continuing to do weight watchers and with my breakfast being really low points for what is in it, it makes it great to save my points for dinner :) Now to tackle tomorrow with work...:)

Changes

Buckcherry is my favorite rock band and yes, that's a picture of them at Crue Fest a couple weeks ago :)

If any of you know me as well as Randy does, then you would know that I change my mind on everything if I'm not happy with it lol. Yes, I've changed my mind yet again on weight loss. This is really hard for me to write about because once I write it down, I have to stick to it. At least that's the point of sticking to something you care about. Anyways, I feel like I have all this freedom with food choices when I count calories that I'm not picking the best food to help me lose weight. Counting calories is awesome and I recommend it to everyone, but I think I need to take another step back (AGAIN) and try something that I know works.

Weight Watchers.

Now, how many times have I said that I'd do this?!?!? And, how many times did I fail?!?!?! Every time I say that I will do Weight Watchers, I end up doing it for 1 day and 1 day only saying it's too hard and I quit. I feel like a quitter and I feel like I'll never reach my weight loss goal. Lately, I've been feeling down about my food choices and I need a big CHANGE!!

I will stick with it for more than 1 day and I will add 5 extra points due to the 35 weekly points outside of your dailies. We'll see how it goes for 1 week....that's how long I'm giving myself lol.

I will start Monday...take care :)

UGH!

179.5 lbs today...WTF?!?!

I think I know why I'm up. Going from eating barely nothing in the beginning of the week to eating normal again messed me up. I added bread (like I normally eat) and my weight came up a tad lol. I'm okay with it because I know it's my normal food. Gonna count my calories today and measure my food to see if I see a loss soon :)


Today's food wasn't that bad. If you look a few days down below you'll see the same things I ate today because I had to work so it was work food. I had 3 Fruit Punch Icees though which was really bad lol.

Tomorrow is a new day. I have to work, but I'll play what I'll eat :)

Learning How To Read Sheet Music...

I have known for a while how to read it, but it was back in elementary school when I learned it lol. So I went online and found some free sheet music that I'm using for my keyboard and it's so much fun. I'm really slow right now, but I'll get better. I'm trying to use both hands, but right now I'm focusing on just my right hand lol.

Here's my food for today :)

• Breakfast
• shredded wheat cereal (170 cals)
  
• strawberries
• splenda packet
• skim milk (90 cals)
  
• Lunch
• Kerby Melt w/ sour cream from Kerby's Koney Island (dunno)
  
• water (1/2 glass)
• Dinner
• easy mac (230 cals)
  
• peas
• 2 ff hot dogs w/ ketchup (little bit) (100 cals)
  
• Snack
• small bag of whoppers :) yum (280 cals)
  

If the Kerby Melt was 600 cals...(which it's probably less than that..) then I'm under 1600 again :) I did so good today too!!! :)

I'm going back to staying under my cals and just eating normal food. The 3 days that I ate practially nothing, I almost starved to death lol. I felt like I wasn't eating and I felt miserable. I will lose my weight at my own pace thanks :)

Thoughts about Weight

My 22nd birthday is on August 21st and I just wanted to say that last year around this time I weighed 160ish. Yes, I'm 178 now, but I would like to be 170 by my birthday. Here is a picture of what 170 lbs looks like on me :) It was from last summer at the wavepool. (where I got burnt lol)

So Hungry.....:(

Alright, so my new way of eating sucks major ass. I enjoy eating the salads, but I do not enjoy being hungry all of the time so, again, I'm changing things up. God why I am so stupid?

I really don't like eating chicken all the time so I don't know. I can't just change my eating habits from greasy to non greasy in a couple of days. That's crazy!! Plus, I am only eating about 1000 calories maybe more every day and that's the reason why I'm so hungry. So, today, I will eat more. Oh and on the days I work, I'm allowing myself ONE Fruit Punch Icee. Just ONE, they are sooooo goood though and they cool me down. I need to change my lifestyle eating habits so I'll work on that day to day.....I need to learn not to eat bad foods. I'm trying! :)

The picture above is an old one of Randy and I at Royal Oak lanes that is not there anymore back in 2005 I believe.

Here's my stuff for today:

• Breakfast
• shredded wheat cereal
• skim milk
• strawberries
• splenda packet
• Lunch
• DipStix w/ spicy cheese @ work
• 22 oz Fruit Punch Icee
• Dinner
• Pizza Pretzel w/ spicy cheese @ work
• 22 oz Fruit Punch Icee
• Snack
• NONE! besides diet pepsi @ work

That's all. I believe that I am still under 1600 cals though because I did calculate them :) I'm proud of myself today. I can not drink those Icee's anymore because they make me jittery with all the sugar!! lol Here's to tomorrow :)

I get to see my baby tomorrow :) whoo hoo :)

OMG!!!

I AM 178 LBS TODAY :)

I guess I'm still in for the Lucky 7's Challenge so I'm down 1 lb for 2 weeks :).

Holy crap! I guess eating right pays off AND the fact that I dropped water weight from being on my period :) I'm so happy that this is helping motivate me to keep going and stick to eating healthy :)

Have a wonderful day today and I'll update my food:

• Breakfast
• shredded wheat cereal
• skim milk
• strawberries
• splenda
• Snack
• protein pudding
• Lunch
• side Caesar salad from Wendy's
• Snack
• banana
• Dinner
• chicken w/ ketchup
• salad with cheese and crackers on it (light cheese) plus french dressing
  
• peas
• Snack
• protein pudding
• 1/4 wedge of cantaloupe
• 4 garlic melba toast
• 3/4 c. ff cottage cheese
  

I had a very good day today although I am still very hungry and have been :(. I think it's because of my sweets and stuff I used to eat. Now, I'm just eating smarter than before and I feel good. I know I'll do fine in a couple more days, I just have to hang in there to get passed this. :)

Trying Something New

Today was the day where I stopped binging on food and get my ass into gear. I could have waited until Monday, but what the hell....why not start today?!

So, I'll start jotting down things I had for breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks here:

• Breakfast
• cheese omelet
• 1/2 banana
• slice of toast w/butter
• Lunch
• 4 melba toast (garlic)
• ff cottage cheese
• Dinner
• mashed potatoes
• corn
• grilled chicken
• Snacks
• canteloupe (1/4 wedge)
• protein pudding (vanilla)
  
• Drinks
• crystal light
• diet pepsi

I'm still a bit hungry and it's reaching 10 pm so I'll go get a snack before bed. I know I'm not eating much, but I'm not writing down my calories because I'm eating healthier food choices.

UPDATE: I had another 1/4 of canteloupe :) yummy

I just really want to see results on the scale faster because YES, I feel fantastic, but I want the numbers to go down. I don't feel 180 so I don't want to see that number lol. Actually I don't know how much I weigh. Last I weighed was 182 so I will drop :) I will weigh myself at the end of the month to see my progress....:)

Take Care :)

Self Esteem

I am going to have to admit that I have a huge self esteem issue. Some days I love how I look, other days, I cringe at the sight of myself. I guess it all depends on what clothes I wear. I have a lot of pants that are too big on me so they make me look huge. I have 2 pairs of pants that fit perfectly, but I can't wear those everyday.

Randy and I seem to argue a lot and when it gets emotional on my part and not on his, it's my problem because I'm constantly feeling sorry for myself. I know that if I lose the weight, I will be a hell of a lot more happier in my skin. I was last summer......I was so happy then....:(

I have a lot of stress that relates to my fears of moving down to Florida with Randy and not knowing what the future is gonna be for us and my career. It down right scares me :(.

I just need to do something about my weight. Getting down to 150 lbs is something that I want so bad that I'm not being patient enough to wait for. I have to put work into it and if that means cutting out calories then that's what I'm gonna have to do. I might do 1000-1200 cals because I'm not very active. On days when I'm active, I'll eat 1200-1500 cals. Inside my Calorie King book, those calories were listed in there for women. I did not make those numbers up.

I'm gonna just incorporate fruits and veggies with every meal with a protein. That's more doable than the MWLC diet that I did last summer. I got down to my semi-goal weight in 3 months last year....this year is gonna take forever!! :( But hey, it's the healthy way :)

Take Care...:)

Breakthrough

I've been feeling really crappy today... I've been downloading music to make me feel better... It's working...

Buckcherry and Sixx AM are my two new favorite bands and their songs are so amazing. There are two songs by Sixx AM that touch me right now. They are "Tomorrow" and "Accidents Can Happen".

Anyways, I am at my wits end with my weight loss. This stupid process is going way too slow for me. Yes, I'm used to faster results, but c'mon, this is ridiculous. So, I went into my brother's old room where the medical weight loss stuff is started reading the material again. The reason why I did this is because I'm wearing a tight red nighty and tight shorts for sleeping and I glanced at myself in the mirror and all I see are rolls :( Not happy at all about it :(....I know I've come a long way, but I want to see more sooooo that's where the booklet comes into play.

Here's a sample of what I would eat with the plan:

• Breakfast:
• 1/2 cup strawberries
• 1 serving shredded wheat cereal
• 4 oz. skim milk
• Lunch:
• 1 portion cottage cheese
• 1 cup raw broccoli
• 1 cup raw cauliflower
• 1 small orange
• 2 slices Melba toast
• Mid-Afternoon Snack:
• 1 cup cantaloupe
• 1 1/2 cups air popped popcorn
• Dinner:
• 1 portion boneless, skinless chicken breast
• 1/2 cup steamed grean beans
• 2 cups romaine
• 1/4 cup cooked pasta

This is just an example. I took it off of their sample meal plans. I have the nutrients to take in between meals, but maybe if I just eat like I used to maybe the weight will fall off?

I need some advice...please!!

Oh and tomorrow will be a nice day with Randy's dad's party :) That means alcohol and fun times....

Now I'll leave you with some lyrics....

Are you waiting for the reason to change?
Are you waiting for the end, has it came?
Nothing's gonna stand in your way...

Just look at yourself, do you like what you see?
Look at yourself, is this how it should be?
Just look at yourself, 'cause there's nowhere to go
And you'll know

Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.

(Sixx AM-Tomorrow) :)

I Was Tagged

5 things found in your bag:
1) wallet
2) chapstick
3) tylenol
4) Calorie King book
5) pads

5 favorite things in your bedroom
1) bed
2) iPod
3) shelf of stuff from Randy
4) tv
5) very cool lamp

5 things I have always wanted to do
1) get to my goal weight
2) sky dive
3) be more independent
4) be wealthy
5) sing

5 things I am currently into:
1) YouTube
2) losing weight
3) school
4) Randy lol
5) ooVoo

Everyone has been tagged, but I will tag Randy and Scott :)

Premonition

Okay, so this week will be shot to hell....again.

Let me just clarify that I really want to lose weight and get thinner. I really want to do this for myself and be happy, but honestly, I like how I look at the moment.

The reason why this week is gonna be bad again is due to my period. It starts in a couple of days and it really sucks with all my cravings and hunger pangs.

Take today for instance, I was extremely hungry all day and it just got worse after I worked out. I had my dinner and it seemed to have subsided for a couple of hours. We got to Walmart and I swear I wanted to eat everything in that store. I ended up buying a Twix so I could subside that and it worked. Although right now I really want to go to McDonald's to get something because I want it. Whether or not I'll actually do that is the question. Another thing, tomorrow I will be going to a Music Festival here in town where Papa Roach, Motley Crue, Buckcherry, and Trapt will be performing and I will probably have a couple drinks or one, and I will be eating crap food lol. ANOTHER thing is that on Thursday night, Randy's parents are throwing a jeepers party here with his jeeping buddies. So that means, snacks, beer, and more snacks and beer!! lol Christi would love to come due to the beer! lmao! :) I love you Christi :)

Anyways, I just feel like I'm doing badly at the moment, but at the same time, I really feel like I'm doing all I can with what I've got. I am not taking diet pills, I am not starving myself, I am just trying to do this the right way :) It's completely mind fucking all at the same time.

So on another note, I remember Shanti saying how much easier it is to lose weight in the summer and Dustin saying how much easier it is to lose weight in the winter. I first thought to myself that the summer is so easy with all the people in skimpy clothing making you want to lose weight and all, but then I thought, wait a minute...this is hard!!! So many parties and outings to go to that food is always there!!! Every summer I have been on some diet that involves me bringing my food wherever I go. Now, I have to make good choices and constantly think about what I'm putting into my mouth because it's not always preplanned like it used to be for me.

I was talking to Randy a little bit ago, he went for a run to destress himself, but I was talking to him about how it might be easier in the winter time to do this. I'll have a set schedule with student teaching and I'll be way busier than I am now. Does this mean that I'm going to stop doing what I'm doing? NO, does this mean that I'll gain my weight back? NO. What I think I'm trying to say as my thoughts spill out onto the keyboard is that I think I'm gonna try to maintain my weight until my life becomes a little less chaotic. I like where I'm at and I'm gonna try to tone my body up so I feel even more better. I am going to stop worrying about the scale and just live my life. I'm 21 years old. I need to enjoy my life more. I need to stop letting food ruin my life.

I will still be a part of the lucky 7's challenge and I will still update you guys on how I'm doing, but I think I'm not going to try as hard. I just want to be happier and live more carefree. I'm not going to stop exercising and I'm not going to pigout on everything I see because if I do, then I'm going back to my old habits and that's not what I want to do. So, I guess you guys won't see me drop tons of weight, I might level off for a while, but I will try to lose inches slowly but surely.

Take care :)

Lucky 7's Challenge Week 2

Well, I was really hoping to lose my water weight from the holiday and birthdays, but apparently I actually gained a pound. Oh well! And, to top it off, my period starts this week and I will definitely be retaining water until I'm off :( It sucks because I am exercising my butt off playing Eye Toy Kinetic and the weight has yet to fall off. I have worked out for 4 days now in a row now and I feel fantastic, but the weight isn't coming off :(.

I really do feel awesome though. My inches I feel are gonna come off more and then the weight will. The Kinetic game really works my legs, thighs, tummy, and arms really good for every workout. I have to do it today because tomorrow I don't think I'll be able to do it. I'm going to a concert tomorrow and I have to be there at 5pm. So we'll see. It's on for today though :) So happy :)

Oh yea, I also started taking protein supplements (not meal replacements), but they are from my Medical Weigh Loss Clinic diet that I did last summer. They have 15 g of protein in each packet and I'm taking three of them a day. I will usually take them 2 hours after each meal or whenever I get hungry before a meal. So, I'll be taking in 45 g just with the packets plus any other protein that I get in anyways. The Calorie King's booklet shows that for women, the amount of protein that we should be getting in daily is 46g-110g. I barely reach the 46 I think. I just need more!! So, we'll see how it goes and see if it improves my weight loss :) I'm excited about that.

Oh yea, and for any of you who have not heard about ooVoo, it's exactly like Skype except you can have video conference calls up to 6 people :) That's awesome :) Hope to see you there :)

Take Care :)

Week 1: 179
Week 2: 180

I am dripping in sweat right now!!

I just got done working out to Kinetic. I burned 350 calories!!! So excited because I really feel like I'll lose weight now that I'm working out. I've got the eating down pat, now it's time to sweat!

Although, this week has been tough with food with me because of a lot of events going on, but they are over now so I can now go back to normal habits :) Yes, I said NORMAL lol. My eating habits are finally normal :) yay!!

This butterfly picture was taken at a butterfly museum when I was in Florida last March in 2007. Isn't she purrrty? lol

Anywho, I am literally dripping sweat off of me so time to shower...

Have a great day everyone! FREE SLURPEES AT 7-11 TODAY BECAUSE IT'S JULY 11TH :)

Ugh...!

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY BOBBY!!!

LOL...he's a quarter of a century old! lol

Anywho! Today is another crappy eating day :(....I feel like I'm giving excuses as to why I'm not on track, but who cares! Today is my brother's birthday and we are going out to dinner AND having cake and ice cream :) Plus, I ate the last 2 slices of pizza this morn for breakfast. So, there is officially no more pizza in this house :) Thank God! I'm glad I got it out of my system. I don't want to return to that again lol.

Now I'm going to play more Kinetic and try to burn off some water weight. I still have my burn, but the pain is hardly there anymore. Some places are worse than others, but I think I can deal with it today.

I was also up on the scale today at 182 lbs due to all the freakin sodium in the pizza :( lol...I still look damn sexy though so whatever!! lol Talk about my confidence :)

The numbers on the scale will go down, but I still feel fantastic......

Onto working out :)

UPDATE: I just worked out and burned 297 calories playing Kinetic...I'm a hot mess right now but I feel good about my workout. :)

Omg!

Okay guys...I'm not falling behind or anything, I'm just about to start my period next week and I am giving into all of my temptations!! That is so bad for me! I gave in to 7 peanut butter cookies at Randy's parent's place (where he's staying at now), and then I had a chocolate roll thingy (2 of them), and then I went home to get pizza from Little Caesars. It was horrible choices today yes, I know, but I really wanted to eat it. I'm glad it's out of my system now and I will not be stuffing my face anymore.

I felt like I had to blog about it because I need to leave myself accountable for whatever I eat. Lately, I have been craving a lot of things because my period will be next week and normally I get the munchies now lol.

I had 6 slices of pizza today :( I had 4 with dinner and 2 later on in the evening. blah!!! lol

I know everyone has had these kinds of days when food and calories are no issue at all so whatever. Tomorrow is a brand new day and my burn is hurting me less so I will probably work out tomorrow with Kinetic and then have cake with my brother for his bday. I promise I'll have a small ass slice because I need to get my butt into gear!!

talk to y'all later :)

Jobs and School!

I seriously can not wait until I start teaching. The only types of jobs that I have had in the past were dead end jobs that were part time only. I have had one full time job that lasted 2 months during the summer like 3 years ago. I have never been paid more than $8.00 an hour and that was when I worked at the Royal Oak Medical Center doing Medical Records. I so got underpaid, but I had no experience with Medical Records and my boss was cheap lol. Anyways, all of my jobs never took me up to management due to the fact that my school schedule was so demanding. I have never done school full time while working full time. I always have dedicated myself to my schooling instead of work because my schooling is what is going to get me somewhere as where a job is just a job for a paycheck. I have to think that way because it's true. All of jobs have just been paychecks to me. School is my ticket out of Michigan :).

I just see other people my age who are in management positions and I'm still getting minimum wage at a dead end job. It frustrates me, but at the same time it's making me appreciate my education so much more because I know I'll be doing something I love and all of these other people will probably be stuck where they are at :). That makes me feel a little better. lol

I can't wait to go back to school in September :)

Lucky 7's Challenge

Okay, so this morning I weighed in at 179.5.

That means that all my water weight pretty much came off :) yay!!

179.5 is my start weight for the new challenge put forth by Mandy and I can't wait to kick some butt.

I have been in the sun pretty much all day and I've had all of my calories so far lol. I might go over a little bit today, but I'm not worried about it. I got in a lot of exercise by swimming in the wave pool and walking around the park for a while. I had so much fun! Although, I got really burnt :(

Other than that, today went well :) I'll be working on the intro video for the challenge today and posting it a little later.

Good Luck to those who are joining the challenge :)

Post 4th of July

Okay y'all! haha....I'm a dork, I know!

I had a great 4th of July and I have to say that while I was there, I didn't count my calories because I never eat the types of food I ate while I was there in Fowlerville :). These are the foods I remember having: (all day, not all at once, and I know I ate a lot so don't be surprised)

• bagel with cream cheese (2) New York Bagel (the second one might have made me sick)
• nacho chips with cheese (large portion lol)
  
• hot dog with cheese
• pasta salad (small portion)
  
• beans (small portion)
• green bean casserole (small portion)
• tiny bite of nasty egg salad....eww their's was gross
• 1 slice of cake
• 3 mint desserts (they looked like tiny cheeseburgers but they were two vanilla wafers that had a mint patty with red and yellow frosting to look like ketchup and mustard)..so good!
• bean dip with cheese and tostitos chips
• 2 Mike's Hard Lemonades
• Strawberry Shortcake frozen ice cream bar from the rest stop coming home! lol
  

I believe that was everything I ate all day. It was sooooo good, yet sooooo unhealthy.

At about 5 am this morning, I woke up shaking uncontrollably and feeling so nauseated that I wanted to throw up! I went to the bathroom to try and throw up but it wouldn't go. My stomach was going crazy the entire time and then finally, it came out :) But not throwing up so at least it's out of me lol.

I weighed this morning at 181 :) I weighed last night to see how the food affected me and I was 184.5 last night (always up by at least 2 lbs at night so I'm not worried).

There is a new challenge for July-August that Mandy, from YouTube, has announced. It runs from July 7th to August 18th. This Challenge is absolutely perfect for me because my 22nd birthday is on August 21st. :) My own personal goal is to lose 11 lbs by my birthday, but if I can get off 7 by it, then this will help me :)

I don't see anymore challenges getting in the way of my weight loss besides my brother's birthday on Thursday the 10th of July. He'll be 25 and we are having cake here at my house. I will put away the calories for it and will only have a small piece.

It seems that this past week, ever since June ended, that I've been having trouble with food only because last weekend was my cousin's grad party and then the 4th was yesterday so it was hard to eat healthy. I see nothing but good things from here on out and I hope ya'll are doing well :)

Have a good week :)

Food for Thought

So, tonight I really got a craving for my pint of Haagen Dazs Strawberry ice cream and I knew that tomorrow, the 4th of July, was going to be an off day because I'll be around lots of yummy food and I know I'm not gonna count my cals for the day. I got the craving and discussed what I was thinking about with Randy. Well, I figured that I'm already gonna go over tomorrow and I'm craving it now, I might as well give in because of tomorrow. I haven't had it in a month now and if I leave a craving, I'll do worse the next day, so I just ate it. It sure was yummy! I even called Christi at like 10:30 (my time) to see if she was awake so she could help me out, but no luck, her phone was off :(.

So, if I gain some weight because of my choice tonight and my choices tomorrow, I am okay with it. I know I'll just work out hard and eat right from Saturday on to get back to where I'm at now at 179 :)

Just some thoughts on what I went through today...food will always still be an issue lol.