Today was a VERY emotional day. Mentally, I was not there......
I COULD have binged if I wanted to, but instead, I chose the right choices!!
September 8, 2009
September 1, 2009
Food For Thought
So I wake up this morning to find a voicemail from a school district wanting to interview me :) Tomorrow at 11 a.m. :) I'm excited and I hope I get the job....even if it is located in a bad area of Detroit. Experience is experience right?
Food:
Food:
- 1 c. chocolately k cereal
- 3/4 of a can of ravioli
- 1.5 c. kraft mac and cheese
- cheese sandwich with hot cheetos on it
August 31, 2009
Feeling Guilty
Today is the 1st of September and I still have yet to find a job. Kids go back to school next week and here I am jobless....:(
I have applied to soooooooo many places included a load in Ohio...:) I am ready to relocate as long as they give me some compensation first to move down there and settle in. I'm ready to work...it's hard just sitting here all day.
Okay, so you're probably wondering why I titled my entry feeling guilty....well....it's because I did NOT go to the gym today to work out. First of all, I woke up at 1 pm. I have been doing that a lot lately....:( Then after waking up, I didn't have breakfast, I ate lunch. Then, I picked up Randy and we went desk shopping because of the computer I now have in my room. I picked up a desk, new mouse, new mousepad, a microphone, speakers, and a pencil holder all for around 100 bucks. It was such a productive day. I was so tired by the time we were done with our 5 hours of shopping that we ordered a pizza and called it a day. Eating wasnt' too bad though.
Here's what I had:
But I feel guilty because I SHOULD have worked out. I just have to realize that sometimes life gets in the way. I'm making small changes that add up to big successes every day. One day of not working out (besides all the walking I did) will not hurt me in the long run. All it means is that I have to push myself harder when I go on Wednesday and Friday.
However, my eating has got to get better. Today was because we were out and not at home. And that's another thing. I don't eat the same foods as my parents so I always eat something different. I don't eat with Randy because we don't live together and I love eating with him so we normally go out now. :( I love having dinner with him. I feel a sense of belonging and like being our little family when I'm with him. :)
I have my exercising down, now I need to get my food a little bit more handled. I love eating the things I like to eat so I'm going to portion even more by expanding my food and counting calories. My target range is to stick between 1400 and 1600 calories a day. I will track on my blog so if you return to view it, it'll be posted by nighttime. I'm looking forward to seeing more changes ahead.
I need to get my sleep pattern down too....that'll come with a job :)
I have applied to soooooooo many places included a load in Ohio...:) I am ready to relocate as long as they give me some compensation first to move down there and settle in. I'm ready to work...it's hard just sitting here all day.
Okay, so you're probably wondering why I titled my entry feeling guilty....well....it's because I did NOT go to the gym today to work out. First of all, I woke up at 1 pm. I have been doing that a lot lately....:( Then after waking up, I didn't have breakfast, I ate lunch. Then, I picked up Randy and we went desk shopping because of the computer I now have in my room. I picked up a desk, new mouse, new mousepad, a microphone, speakers, and a pencil holder all for around 100 bucks. It was such a productive day. I was so tired by the time we were done with our 5 hours of shopping that we ordered a pizza and called it a day. Eating wasnt' too bad though.
Here's what I had:
- Santa Fe Style Rice and Beans
- 1/3 of what was left of my chocolate chip and cherry cone dip blizzard
- 4 slices of pepperoni pizza
But I feel guilty because I SHOULD have worked out. I just have to realize that sometimes life gets in the way. I'm making small changes that add up to big successes every day. One day of not working out (besides all the walking I did) will not hurt me in the long run. All it means is that I have to push myself harder when I go on Wednesday and Friday.
However, my eating has got to get better. Today was because we were out and not at home. And that's another thing. I don't eat the same foods as my parents so I always eat something different. I don't eat with Randy because we don't live together and I love eating with him so we normally go out now. :( I love having dinner with him. I feel a sense of belonging and like being our little family when I'm with him. :)
I have my exercising down, now I need to get my food a little bit more handled. I love eating the things I like to eat so I'm going to portion even more by expanding my food and counting calories. My target range is to stick between 1400 and 1600 calories a day. I will track on my blog so if you return to view it, it'll be posted by nighttime. I'm looking forward to seeing more changes ahead.
I need to get my sleep pattern down too....that'll come with a job :)
July 4, 2009
Happy 4th!!!
Thank you Laura for the nice comment you left :) I'm glad you read my blog! :)
Okay, so diet news. I'm still tracking on this FatSecret.com, but I'm looking at the calorie intake rather than the points. So if I have 30 points a day, that's about 1500 calories a day and that's enough to make me lose 1 lb a week. The 30 Points a day is my 25 plus 5 out of the 35 weekly points I get. So either way, I'm golden.
I've been playing badminton all day pretty much so my arm is sore!! lol It hurts while typing lol.
Today's been fantastic with eating. Yesterday was great also. I think I'm doing okay so far....I mean it has been 8 weeks just about :) Yay!!!
Okay, so diet news. I'm still tracking on this FatSecret.com, but I'm looking at the calorie intake rather than the points. So if I have 30 points a day, that's about 1500 calories a day and that's enough to make me lose 1 lb a week. The 30 Points a day is my 25 plus 5 out of the 35 weekly points I get. So either way, I'm golden.
I've been playing badminton all day pretty much so my arm is sore!! lol It hurts while typing lol.
Today's been fantastic with eating. Yesterday was great also. I think I'm doing okay so far....I mean it has been 8 weeks just about :) Yay!!!
July 1, 2009
Get Inside My Head
To the very few that read this, please read this post to get inside my head.
This past weekend camping trip was so much fun...it really was, but it's nothing like getting off track that makes me feel worst the most. I planned my meals for every day that weekend. I thought I did so good. Come to weigh in on Monday morning with a gain was just a blow to my overall confidence about my diet.
So what am I doing right this minute? I am re-watching Shanti's old videos because she is amazingly inspirational to me. I remember when her and I first started talking when she first joined YouTube. She's lost all her weight and got to goal, well her first goal. She did all of that by counting calories and exercising. She makes it look so easy.
It's hard when I see a gain on the scale after what I thought was a victorious weekend, food wise. If I'd have known I would have gained, then I should have actually eaten what I was craving. It's hard to not give in to temptation, it's hard to stay on track, and it's hard to do that while you are the only one dieting.
This blog is all over the place because that's where my head is at tonight.
I've been on Weight Watchers for almost 8 weeks now and look at my stats:
W1: 189 (-3.0)
W2: 186 (-3.0)
W3: 186 (maintained)
W4: 185.5 (-0.5)
W5: 186 (+0.5) (need to start losing here)
W6: 186 (maintained)
W7: 187 (+1.0) ugh..stupid camping lol
Wow.......I mean I'm happy that I've lost 5 lbs and have been able to keep it off, but this is clearly not working. I feel like I'm eating to maintain when in my head, I want to eat to LOSE!! It's not showing!
Where am I going from here? Not sure. I'm still going to post weigh ins on my page, but really what's the point?
Let's see if I can turn this week around? I might actually listen to Shanti's advice like I did last summer.....at least last summer I saw changes......
This past weekend camping trip was so much fun...it really was, but it's nothing like getting off track that makes me feel worst the most. I planned my meals for every day that weekend. I thought I did so good. Come to weigh in on Monday morning with a gain was just a blow to my overall confidence about my diet.
So what am I doing right this minute? I am re-watching Shanti's old videos because she is amazingly inspirational to me. I remember when her and I first started talking when she first joined YouTube. She's lost all her weight and got to goal, well her first goal. She did all of that by counting calories and exercising. She makes it look so easy.
It's hard when I see a gain on the scale after what I thought was a victorious weekend, food wise. If I'd have known I would have gained, then I should have actually eaten what I was craving. It's hard to not give in to temptation, it's hard to stay on track, and it's hard to do that while you are the only one dieting.
This blog is all over the place because that's where my head is at tonight.
I've been on Weight Watchers for almost 8 weeks now and look at my stats:
W1: 189 (-3.0)
W2: 186 (-3.0)
W3: 186 (maintained)
W4: 185.5 (-0.5)
W5: 186 (+0.5) (need to start losing here)
W6: 186 (maintained)
W7: 187 (+1.0) ugh..stupid camping lol
Wow.......I mean I'm happy that I've lost 5 lbs and have been able to keep it off, but this is clearly not working. I feel like I'm eating to maintain when in my head, I want to eat to LOSE!! It's not showing!
Where am I going from here? Not sure. I'm still going to post weigh ins on my page, but really what's the point?
Let's see if I can turn this week around? I might actually listen to Shanti's advice like I did last summer.....at least last summer I saw changes......
June 28, 2009
Camping Anyone?
I went camping this weekend with my fiance and our friend Randy. I had a great time there at Holly Recreation. The only downer was our SUNBURN!!!! Holy crap.......I can has sunburn bad!!!!
My face hurts, shoulders (extreme pain), and my back....(lil bit) it's all because we did not wear any sunscreen!!! So I guess we kinda deserved it. It still sucks. Saturday was the day we went to the beach.....Heron Beach. We spent hours in the water. We come back so burnt and when it was time to sleep.........we couldn't! If we laid on our backs, we would screech from the pain. Our sides were the same way. When I woke up, it hurt so bad from being dry!!! Randy was putting the Aloe After Sun Lotion on me and I almost threw up from the pain :(. It'll get to a tan soon though. I just feel bad because I can't shower yet lol. The water pressure will hurt too much :(.
A week from tomorrow is my first day of teaching :) I am sooooooooooooo excited to teach a class. I will be teaching 8th grade math for 20 days. I'm so excited. I'll be putting together my last minute plans this week and heading into my classroom to put up the finishing touches.
Diet news: This weekend went really well with WW. I do have to say that I was estimating my point values and I had the full 35 for the weekend to use up. Today, however, when I got home, I was hungry! It might be because of stress here at home...not sure. I ate and I hope I don't gain for tomorrow's weigh in. I feel really good about the weigh in too. We'll see. Wish me luck!
My face hurts, shoulders (extreme pain), and my back....(lil bit) it's all because we did not wear any sunscreen!!! So I guess we kinda deserved it. It still sucks. Saturday was the day we went to the beach.....Heron Beach. We spent hours in the water. We come back so burnt and when it was time to sleep.........we couldn't! If we laid on our backs, we would screech from the pain. Our sides were the same way. When I woke up, it hurt so bad from being dry!!! Randy was putting the Aloe After Sun Lotion on me and I almost threw up from the pain :(. It'll get to a tan soon though. I just feel bad because I can't shower yet lol. The water pressure will hurt too much :(.
A week from tomorrow is my first day of teaching :) I am sooooooooooooo excited to teach a class. I will be teaching 8th grade math for 20 days. I'm so excited. I'll be putting together my last minute plans this week and heading into my classroom to put up the finishing touches.
Diet news: This weekend went really well with WW. I do have to say that I was estimating my point values and I had the full 35 for the weekend to use up. Today, however, when I got home, I was hungry! It might be because of stress here at home...not sure. I ate and I hope I don't gain for tomorrow's weigh in. I feel really good about the weigh in too. We'll see. Wish me luck!
June 21, 2009
About 1 Month..
Ok so I've been doing Weight Watchers for a very good 6 weeks now, but I've been on plan for 5 of those weeks. I'm thankful for this way of eating because it truly shows weight loss. I weighed in this morning and I was 186.5 so the food I ate a lot of is coming off. This week's focus is on staying at my points and adding exercise to it.
My real struggle will come this weekend when I go camping!!!! I haven't been camping in years!!!!! I'm so excited....
So, I stumbled upon this really cool application that FaceBook has called MyDiet. It runs from this website and it's really cool. Let me tell you a little bit about it. The features are the same as any type of diet forum you probably have gone to. The real difference here was that it TRACKS WEIGHT WATCHER POINTS and calories!!! How great is that?! I've been trying to find a points tracker online website (free by the way) forever. It's really accurate too! I suggest you looking at it...you know you want to!
June 20, 2009
Blah
That's how I feel right about now...just blah. Since my journal focuses on my diet and what I do on an every day basis, I feel that I should talk about what's been going on with my diet.
I have been eating everything that is unhealthy for a person to eat. It's awful that I'm eating this way. I get a little bit of cash in my life and I spend it on food! ugh......
I've been off track for exactly one week. Is that the end of my diet?? NO! I'm getting back on track in the morning. I know I can do it and lose the weight. Weight Watchers was working so well...why did I get off track for a week? Oh ya, I was graduating and it was the end of the school year so a bunch of parties popped up. That's still no excuse!
Well, back on track in the morning and I'm really looking forward to it. I weighed this morning and it was 187 so I'm still hovering around 186 .........ugh.....time to lose!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have been eating everything that is unhealthy for a person to eat. It's awful that I'm eating this way. I get a little bit of cash in my life and I spend it on food! ugh......
I've been off track for exactly one week. Is that the end of my diet?? NO! I'm getting back on track in the morning. I know I can do it and lose the weight. Weight Watchers was working so well...why did I get off track for a week? Oh ya, I was graduating and it was the end of the school year so a bunch of parties popped up. That's still no excuse!
Well, back on track in the morning and I'm really looking forward to it. I weighed this morning and it was 187 so I'm still hovering around 186 .........ugh.....time to lose!!!!!!!!!!!!!
June 16, 2009
Need to Get Back on Track
The last weekend of school has been horrible, eating wise. I graduated, had student's last day of school and plus my graduation party! Eating was horrible!!! I'm not even back on track today..ugh! Tomorrow is a clean slate and I'll get back on it. I feel weird not being on it though.
I need to make small changes to my lifestyle. I'm sick of diets and having them control my life.
Oh yea, I'm a teacher :) Feels so good!
I need to make small changes to my lifestyle. I'm sick of diets and having them control my life.
Oh yea, I'm a teacher :) Feels so good!
June 3, 2009
A Quickie!
Okay, so this will be quick.
I've been waaaaaay too busy to make a video and I'm late on videos as of Monday. I did weigh in and I'm exactly the same as I was last week: 186 lbs :)
So yay for maintaining!!!!
However, today was our Mexican Town field trip for the 6th grade (spanish field trip) so we had food :) Good food...and then I had pizza for dinner so instead of my usual Friday or Saturday night splurge for dinner, it was taken for all day today. I know I'll be retaining water weight because I already feel bloated and crap!! But, come Monday I hope to maintain or lose 1 lb. Wish me luck!!!!
I did well for the choices that were put in front of me today so I'm happy.
Goodnight :)
I've been waaaaaay too busy to make a video and I'm late on videos as of Monday. I did weigh in and I'm exactly the same as I was last week: 186 lbs :)
So yay for maintaining!!!!
However, today was our Mexican Town field trip for the 6th grade (spanish field trip) so we had food :) Good food...and then I had pizza for dinner so instead of my usual Friday or Saturday night splurge for dinner, it was taken for all day today. I know I'll be retaining water weight because I already feel bloated and crap!! But, come Monday I hope to maintain or lose 1 lb. Wish me luck!!!!
I did well for the choices that were put in front of me today so I'm happy.
Goodnight :)
May 25, 2009
Weigh In Day
OMG!! I lost 3 lbs this week :)
I am now 186 lbs :)
Today went so well. I was hungry when I left the house for the mall, but I curbed my cravings while I went shopping for a bathing suit top. I will show my side view because I have stitches on my chest from a skin biopsy. It's really cute though.
I would show the front view but like I said, I have something there lol. Anyways.....I had fun with Randy and my fiance at the park today and at the mall. My diet went very well. I ended up with a total of 25 points so I'm right on target :) Here's a cute pic of us at the park for a fair :).
Well it's time for bed because the 3 1/2 day weekend is over :( I go back to school tomorrow for student teaching. On Wednesday I'll be at the Middle School observing the math classes so I'm really looking forward to that :)
Have a great week!!
I am now 186 lbs :)
Today went so well. I was hungry when I left the house for the mall, but I curbed my cravings while I went shopping for a bathing suit top. I will show my side view because I have stitches on my chest from a skin biopsy. It's really cute though.
I would show the front view but like I said, I have something there lol. Anyways.....I had fun with Randy and my fiance at the park today and at the mall. My diet went very well. I ended up with a total of 25 points so I'm right on target :) Here's a cute pic of us at the park for a fair :).
Well it's time for bed because the 3 1/2 day weekend is over :( I go back to school tomorrow for student teaching. On Wednesday I'll be at the Middle School observing the math classes so I'm really looking forward to that :)
Have a great week!!
May 24, 2009
Diet Update
Well things have been going extremely well! I am losing weight!! So happy about that.
It seems like on Sundays I get really depressed.....it's really weird.
So tomorrow is my weigh in day :) Wish me luck!
Right about now is when I stop my diet and binge on food. Well, I have not found that I want to do that because I'm eating all the foods I love in moderation. I keep having these really good days where I'll be like, no I can't have a Taquito today (from 7-11) because I had one yesterday. I like doing that because that's what healthy people do. They have extremely good food in moderation.
I had saved my 35 extra points for the grad party on Friday night and we ended up having pizza :) I weighed on Friday morning just to see what I was and then on Sat morning I was lower than Friday :) That pizza had nothing on me!! I am doing so well :)
Although, the past 2 days I have been extremely hungry!!! I think it's from Friday night's pizza and crackers....... I'm handling it very well by going all the way up to my points (26) instead of the 20-23 I usually go to. So, I'm still doing well.
I hope tomorrow's weigh in goes even better :)
It seems like on Sundays I get really depressed.....it's really weird.
So tomorrow is my weigh in day :) Wish me luck!
Right about now is when I stop my diet and binge on food. Well, I have not found that I want to do that because I'm eating all the foods I love in moderation. I keep having these really good days where I'll be like, no I can't have a Taquito today (from 7-11) because I had one yesterday. I like doing that because that's what healthy people do. They have extremely good food in moderation.
I had saved my 35 extra points for the grad party on Friday night and we ended up having pizza :) I weighed on Friday morning just to see what I was and then on Sat morning I was lower than Friday :) That pizza had nothing on me!! I am doing so well :)
Although, the past 2 days I have been extremely hungry!!! I think it's from Friday night's pizza and crackers....... I'm handling it very well by going all the way up to my points (26) instead of the 20-23 I usually go to. So, I'm still doing well.
I hope tomorrow's weigh in goes even better :)
May 17, 2009
Day Before Weigh In
Yep, that's right. Tomorrow is my weigh in. I hope I lose. I don't think I'll gain at all :) I am however going to be on my period this week so I might gain water weight......but I'm not sure.
Today was such a busy day. I printed out certificates for all my students because they just completed a new math book this year (connected math) and they deserve the credit! I also just made a thank you card for a student because she bought me a bookmark that says Teacher on it :) How cute?!
Okay back to my diet. I am doing so well! Yesterday, I had a lot of opportunities to stray from healthy eating when we went to 7-11 and when Randy's dad bought pizza. I went home to get my food and came back to his place to eat my food. I did so good!
Here's to a great week :)
May 16, 2009
Wonderful Week
This week has gone so well! I have been doing Weight Watchers for just about one week and let me tell you how fabulous it is. My weigh in's are on Mondays so we'll see where I'm at, but I started at 192...again :(
Last night was our pizza night so we had that and then I had chips, but before dinner I was spot on like always.
I have eggs and toast for breakfast, a salad for lunch, and usually a box meal with some protein added for dinner. I'll have a snack after dinner and that's pretty much my whole day.
Weekends can be tough, but so far so good.
Oh and when I say I'm doing Weight Watchers, I'm doing it a little differently. How I'm doing it is that I believe that: 50 calories = 1 points value. I do not keep my tracker with me. I just assume that 50 cals = 1 pt. So, I will look at the label and do the math. If it's high in Fiber and low in fat cals then I'll go one point beneath the original. This is so much easier for me than having to be so strict with the "rules". I've done WW before and I'm not gonna go back to basics. I'm not doing the momentum plan either because I'm not attending meetings. I'm really on my own. No one prepares the meals for me but me! I'm responsible for what I make and eat and I have to be proud of what I eat. Does that make sense?
I'll be adding more photos like I did last year soon enough :) Have a wonderful weekend!
Last night was our pizza night so we had that and then I had chips, but before dinner I was spot on like always.
I have eggs and toast for breakfast, a salad for lunch, and usually a box meal with some protein added for dinner. I'll have a snack after dinner and that's pretty much my whole day.
Weekends can be tough, but so far so good.
Oh and when I say I'm doing Weight Watchers, I'm doing it a little differently. How I'm doing it is that I believe that: 50 calories = 1 points value. I do not keep my tracker with me. I just assume that 50 cals = 1 pt. So, I will look at the label and do the math. If it's high in Fiber and low in fat cals then I'll go one point beneath the original. This is so much easier for me than having to be so strict with the "rules". I've done WW before and I'm not gonna go back to basics. I'm not doing the momentum plan either because I'm not attending meetings. I'm really on my own. No one prepares the meals for me but me! I'm responsible for what I make and eat and I have to be proud of what I eat. Does that make sense?
I'll be adding more photos like I did last year soon enough :) Have a wonderful weekend!
May 6, 2009
I Hate This...
I was doing so well and then I feel right off the wagon due to stress. I don't have a job that pays anything because of student teaching so right now I'm so stressed due to that. If I had an income, things would be so much better. Right now I only get about 5 dollars a week from my mom. That's it!! I mean she gives me gas money, but that goes in my tank lol. I know I'm lucky to even be at home and have a roof over my head, but c'mon.
I don't own any credit cards so it's not like I can just go to the store and buy food or clothes. I have to ask for money all the time and being 22 and not having an income makes me very depressed. I never thought that I could be THIS depressed......................ever!! I want to lose weight, but the drive isn't there because of my depression....
help me please....
I don't own any credit cards so it's not like I can just go to the store and buy food or clothes. I have to ask for money all the time and being 22 and not having an income makes me very depressed. I never thought that I could be THIS depressed......................ever!! I want to lose weight, but the drive isn't there because of my depression....
help me please....
May 4, 2009
Doing Awesome
Hey there. I wanted to share my daily plate menu with you all.
http://www.livestrong.com/profile/mellowyellow821/
That is where I track ALL of my food choices :) I'm pretty proud to say that I have stayed under 1500 calories since last Monday. On Friday it says that I only ate 642 and that is wrong. I ate a little bit under 1500 calories but I couldn't find my dinner food on the website. That day I did the calculations in my head and it turned out better than I expected. This was because I went to National Coney Island and ate a Hani....:) Yum!
Anywho, this week went extremely well and I have to say that I feel better about myself. I particularly do not feel good about myself today, but that's the depression talking I'm sure. I just woke up after a 2 hour nap and that's how my Monday's normally go.
This week I plan on having eggs and toast for breakfast. My cereal is good, but I want a lower calorie breakfast so it'll last me longer throughout the day. My lunches are still okay. I usually have a sandwich and some chips. This week I have been measuring out 1 oz of chips to take with me for lunch and it works, but I want to buy a lower calorie type of chip. I saw these new Late Night Jalapeno Popper chips and they were 150 cal for 1 oz. So good!!! My dinners consist of a salad and a smart one's meal such as the fettuccine alfredo with broccoli. So yummy!!! So all in all, I just plan on changing my breakfasts and my choice of chips. I think I'll do better this week.
Also, I feel like I'll lose inches before weight. Not sure, but I know the weight will come off gradually. I'm in no hurry to drop weight. I just want to make this a routine.
April 26, 2009
Ha!
I never stayed under 1500 calories last week like I said I was going to. I never counted any of my calories last week. I did have an "ah ha" moment though. I posted a video in my youtube vlog about it. I have no summer shorts/capris that fit me this year. They did last year, but not this year. All of this summer weather >70 degrees is making me want to get skinny.
I really want to be down at least 20 lbs by July 1st. 2 lbs a week is gonna be hard to keep up with. I'm sitting at 191 lbs right now so my goal will be 171 lbs by July 1st. It's gonna be hard, but I think I can do it. I'm going to vlog daily because I need some motivation to continue to do this. I want to actually SEE the progress I'm making instead of just talking about what I want to do.
Here's to this week.
I really want to be down at least 20 lbs by July 1st. 2 lbs a week is gonna be hard to keep up with. I'm sitting at 191 lbs right now so my goal will be 171 lbs by July 1st. It's gonna be hard, but I think I can do it. I'm going to vlog daily because I need some motivation to continue to do this. I want to actually SEE the progress I'm making instead of just talking about what I want to do.
Here's to this week.
April 19, 2009
Hello
I can't believe it's already April 19. In two more days, it'll be our 4 year anniversary :) How exciting is that?!?!?! :)
Ok.....I have been super depressed lately. Lots of emotional things have been going on in my life and I don't see it getting any better until after graduation. I graduate on June 13th and I hope that's a happy day with my family and I.
My friend Randy (a friend of my fiance's and I's) is also trying to lose 50 lbs. His method is to just eat healthier options and exercise. Seems simple right? He's doing a fantastic job right now and I know he's losing weight.
Me, on the other hand, probably still weigh 190 ish and my emotions are still getting the best of me. Every time I get really depressed, I turn to food :( Like today.....:( awful day ....
I'm using a formula that I mentioned in one of my previous blogs to lose weight (calorie counting) and it says I need to stay under 1500 cals to lose 1 lb a week.
I'm gonna do that this week. :)
Ok.....I have been super depressed lately. Lots of emotional things have been going on in my life and I don't see it getting any better until after graduation. I graduate on June 13th and I hope that's a happy day with my family and I.
My friend Randy (a friend of my fiance's and I's) is also trying to lose 50 lbs. His method is to just eat healthier options and exercise. Seems simple right? He's doing a fantastic job right now and I know he's losing weight.
Me, on the other hand, probably still weigh 190 ish and my emotions are still getting the best of me. Every time I get really depressed, I turn to food :( Like today.....:( awful day ....
I'm using a formula that I mentioned in one of my previous blogs to lose weight (calorie counting) and it says I need to stay under 1500 cals to lose 1 lb a week.
I'm gonna do that this week. :)
March 29, 2009
Motivation
I just opened up my old food journal from last May (2008) and I am going to be counting my calories again. I just typed out my calorie cycling days and how much I need for each day and I glued it to the inside of my journal to remind me.
I'm gonna start working out at Fitness again. My plan is to go 3x a week and while I'm there I'll do some cardio and then some weights if I feel up to it. I know it will work and with calorie cycling, my weight will come off :)
yay!!!
I'm gonna start working out at Fitness again. My plan is to go 3x a week and while I'm there I'll do some cardio and then some weights if I feel up to it. I know it will work and with calorie cycling, my weight will come off :)
yay!!!
March 25, 2009
Failure
I do not have any good news to report. The diet I was on for a week is going to be a no go because it's not something I can do if I go eat outside of my house therefore it would make my eating habits just stay in the home and I want a life!!
Of course I want to lose weight...who doesn't? I'm still struggling with why I want to lose my weight. Is it for me or for my mom? I had this problem when I was living here before I moved out for the first time. Once I was on my own, I became my own individual who knew what I was doing. Now, it seems like I'm back to my old ways....and it's sad.
I'm hoping to get a teaching job this summer and fall :) so here's to getting a new apartment huh? lol :)
Of course I want to lose weight...who doesn't? I'm still struggling with why I want to lose my weight. Is it for me or for my mom? I had this problem when I was living here before I moved out for the first time. Once I was on my own, I became my own individual who knew what I was doing. Now, it seems like I'm back to my old ways....and it's sad.
I'm hoping to get a teaching job this summer and fall :) so here's to getting a new apartment huh? lol :)
March 23, 2009
Weigh In Day
So today I weighed in at: 189 lbs!!!
That is a 4 lb loss this week. I totally don't feel bloated anymore, but I am rather quite hungry!! This week I am going to incorporate more foods into my diet plan because that first week is good for a short fast. I miss some of my foods so I'm going to stick with having a certain amount of calories every meal. I will not count calories, but I will try to stick with about 300-400 per meal and about 100 per snack and that's about 1 time a day.
Things are going well.
That is a 4 lb loss this week. I totally don't feel bloated anymore, but I am rather quite hungry!! This week I am going to incorporate more foods into my diet plan because that first week is good for a short fast. I miss some of my foods so I'm going to stick with having a certain amount of calories every meal. I will not count calories, but I will try to stick with about 300-400 per meal and about 100 per snack and that's about 1 time a day.
Things are going well.
March 22, 2009
What A Week!
This week has been so emotional!!!
For student teaching, we started a new math this week called Connected Math and let me tell you...for sixth graders, I really had to start slow with them because they are not used to this type of math. They have to take notes and graph a lot of things before they move on to their hw. It's very difficult. I will admit that I became a little stressed out this week. I cried.....(after school) and I ended up getting sick on Thursday afternoon. I tried my best, but my throat hurt so bad I could barely speak. I'm getting better so tomorrow will be better...:) I want to be there for my students :)
DIET NEWS: I started a new meal plan last Monday weighing in at 193 lbs. This plan is from when I did Medical Weight Loss Clinic Diet two summers ago and lost a ton of weight in like two months. The only difference is that this time I am not paying to go and I am not on their vitamins or taking their nutrients three times a day. This meal plan is just simply regular food (good food and healthy) and I eat a breakfast, lunch, afternoon snack, and dinner. I will update tomorrow, but it's DEFINITELY WORKING!!! I weigh every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday just so it keeps me on track. Weigh in is tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Because I was so emotional all week, last night (dinner) I wanted nothing but my comfort food. I wouldn't have accepted anything else because I was missing that one thing that made me feel better for the moment.....I said for the moment lol. So I ate off plan just for my dinner only and boy did it catch up with me. Talk about an upset stomach!!!!!!!!!!! I had to leave the restaurant right after eating because yea, enough said lol.
If anyone wants a copy of the diet plan, I will work on it and give it to you. I promise you will see results within the first week!!!!!! :)
more later :) bye
For student teaching, we started a new math this week called Connected Math and let me tell you...for sixth graders, I really had to start slow with them because they are not used to this type of math. They have to take notes and graph a lot of things before they move on to their hw. It's very difficult. I will admit that I became a little stressed out this week. I cried.....(after school) and I ended up getting sick on Thursday afternoon. I tried my best, but my throat hurt so bad I could barely speak. I'm getting better so tomorrow will be better...:) I want to be there for my students :)
DIET NEWS: I started a new meal plan last Monday weighing in at 193 lbs. This plan is from when I did Medical Weight Loss Clinic Diet two summers ago and lost a ton of weight in like two months. The only difference is that this time I am not paying to go and I am not on their vitamins or taking their nutrients three times a day. This meal plan is just simply regular food (good food and healthy) and I eat a breakfast, lunch, afternoon snack, and dinner. I will update tomorrow, but it's DEFINITELY WORKING!!! I weigh every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday just so it keeps me on track. Weigh in is tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Because I was so emotional all week, last night (dinner) I wanted nothing but my comfort food. I wouldn't have accepted anything else because I was missing that one thing that made me feel better for the moment.....I said for the moment lol. So I ate off plan just for my dinner only and boy did it catch up with me. Talk about an upset stomach!!!!!!!!!!! I had to leave the restaurant right after eating because yea, enough said lol.
If anyone wants a copy of the diet plan, I will work on it and give it to you. I promise you will see results within the first week!!!!!! :)
more later :) bye
March 7, 2009
Weekend So Far
Friday was my day to eat a nice dinner and snack with no counting. That's exactly what I did! I had a BWW Chicken Tender Wrap with sour cream and then I had a medium chocolate chip and cherry dipping blizzard from DQ. So yummy!!!
Today, I am right back on track. Although, our groceries are running out today so I have to be careful with the things that I make. Other than that, things are going so great :)
I have been stepping on the scale all week and some days it said 190 and then today it said 191.5 so it must be from the sodium I had yesterday with my Wrap (fries were with that). I should see a drop from 192 lbs by Monday :)
Here's to another great week :)
Today, I am right back on track. Although, our groceries are running out today so I have to be careful with the things that I make. Other than that, things are going so great :)
I have been stepping on the scale all week and some days it said 190 and then today it said 191.5 so it must be from the sodium I had yesterday with my Wrap (fries were with that). I should see a drop from 192 lbs by Monday :)
Here's to another great week :)
March 4, 2009
Day 4
Total Calories today: 1493 :)
I even had 2 slices of pizza AND about 1/4 c. of ice cream for sweetness!!
Go me!
UPDATE: I did weigh myself this morning when I woke up and I weigh 190 lbs. So it's working!!
I even had 2 slices of pizza AND about 1/4 c. of ice cream for sweetness!!
Go me!
UPDATE: I did weigh myself this morning when I woke up and I weigh 190 lbs. So it's working!!
March 3, 2009
Day 3
Still going strong and still doing very good. I've had ice cream these past 2 days and have enjoyed it! The only difference is that I measured out a half cup. I'm so proud of myself too!!
Total calories: 1330
I'm really hoping to see a drop in some weight by Monday!! I didn't weigh myself for my start weight, but I probably guessed about right anyways.
I will probably have one more snack or so before bed so I'll update tomorrow if that changes.
Total calories: 1330
I'm really hoping to see a drop in some weight by Monday!! I didn't weigh myself for my start weight, but I probably guessed about right anyways.
I will probably have one more snack or so before bed so I'll update tomorrow if that changes.
March 2, 2009
Day 2
This is my second time typing this because I lost my first entry.
Total calories today: 1390
I'm doing well still :) I think tomorrow will be just as good!
Total calories today: 1390
I'm doing well still :) I think tomorrow will be just as good!
March 1, 2009
The Daily Plate
For some reason, I woke up extremely motivated to get back on track today. It's really weird, but I like it. I really think it's because I'm off my period today and I don't feel bloated anymore. I love when that happens lol.
I'm going to continue tracking on the daily plate so if anyone wants to see what I'm eating, head here: ME. Feel free to look at my plate and see what foods I'm eating. My goal is to lose 1.5 lbs a week. I know that's completely doable because I've done it before. I don't know my starting weight, but I really think I weigh 192.0 lbs....yikes!!!!
Wish me luck :)
Start: 192.0
I'm going to continue tracking on the daily plate so if anyone wants to see what I'm eating, head here: ME. Feel free to look at my plate and see what foods I'm eating. My goal is to lose 1.5 lbs a week. I know that's completely doable because I've done it before. I don't know my starting weight, but I really think I weigh 192.0 lbs....yikes!!!!
Wish me luck :)
Start: 192.0
February 26, 2009
Feeling Slightly Motivated
So, I have been watching some more YouTube videos and I'm slightly beginning to get motivated again. I'd like to make YouTube videos, but honestly, I don't have the time to make a video each week anymore. Student teaching is such a full time position plus more!!
I'm getting to a point in my life that I really don't know how to handle. I remember writing about how my mind still thinks I'm thinner than I really am because I lost weight so quickly and gained it back so fast that my mind has not caught up with my body image. I seem to be opposite of what weight and body image is supposed to be. So, I totally can tell that I've gained weight and I hate it!!! Everytime I look in the mirror, I feel thinner than what my body is showing others so I am disgusted when I see what it looking back at me. Also, I know that I have an addiction to food. I can go on many diets and lose weight...not a problem. My problem is food! I love food too much to want to give up the tastes.
So I was at Border's today and I was looking at many diet books, as usual, and they all had like a specific plan and there was always a specific list of foods that were off limits. I can not handle having any food be off limits for me. I would end up binging on food more because of the absence. Anywho, not sure what's going on with me now because I hate how I feel sometimes, but I really don't want to put the effort into losing weight. My mind is going in so many circles and I don't know what to do.
I might go back to counting calories because that's what worked for me :)....I think once I get out of my parent's house and on my own, I'll end up starting this. Until then, not sure...:(
I'm getting to a point in my life that I really don't know how to handle. I remember writing about how my mind still thinks I'm thinner than I really am because I lost weight so quickly and gained it back so fast that my mind has not caught up with my body image. I seem to be opposite of what weight and body image is supposed to be. So, I totally can tell that I've gained weight and I hate it!!! Everytime I look in the mirror, I feel thinner than what my body is showing others so I am disgusted when I see what it looking back at me. Also, I know that I have an addiction to food. I can go on many diets and lose weight...not a problem. My problem is food! I love food too much to want to give up the tastes.
So I was at Border's today and I was looking at many diet books, as usual, and they all had like a specific plan and there was always a specific list of foods that were off limits. I can not handle having any food be off limits for me. I would end up binging on food more because of the absence. Anywho, not sure what's going on with me now because I hate how I feel sometimes, but I really don't want to put the effort into losing weight. My mind is going in so many circles and I don't know what to do.
I might go back to counting calories because that's what worked for me :)....I think once I get out of my parent's house and on my own, I'll end up starting this. Until then, not sure...:(
January 30, 2009
Stressed Out
Well, just when I thought things were going really good for me, BOOM, I get sick.
I had the flu this past week :( I went to the Emergency room on Monday night because I was really nauseated and was throwing up. I got into my mom's car with a bag to throw up in on my lap and trust me, did I use it! It was awful. The following day I had a slight fever, aches and pains, and I was having hot and cold flashes all day. This is when I knew it was the flu. From then on I took a couple more days to recover so I missed 4 days of teaching :(....I feel so awful for not being there too. It's not that I didn't want to be there.....I was sick :( I had all my plans done though so my cooperating teacher was very well prepared :) I am happy about pleasing her though.
On to my weight loss. Oh boy.....what can I say? The last time I weighed in was a couple of days ago and I think I weighed about 190. So......that's where I've been settled at for months now.
I think that the girls on YouTube who are on Weight Watchers are all very inspirational and I wish I could be like them, but where is my motivation to get going? I feel like I lack motivation to even start. My addiction to food is so bad that I feel like it's hindering my weight loss.
What am I even saying ! ugh.....I need to do it now.
I had the flu this past week :( I went to the Emergency room on Monday night because I was really nauseated and was throwing up. I got into my mom's car with a bag to throw up in on my lap and trust me, did I use it! It was awful. The following day I had a slight fever, aches and pains, and I was having hot and cold flashes all day. This is when I knew it was the flu. From then on I took a couple more days to recover so I missed 4 days of teaching :(....I feel so awful for not being there too. It's not that I didn't want to be there.....I was sick :( I had all my plans done though so my cooperating teacher was very well prepared :) I am happy about pleasing her though.
On to my weight loss. Oh boy.....what can I say? The last time I weighed in was a couple of days ago and I think I weighed about 190. So......that's where I've been settled at for months now.
I think that the girls on YouTube who are on Weight Watchers are all very inspirational and I wish I could be like them, but where is my motivation to get going? I feel like I lack motivation to even start. My addiction to food is so bad that I feel like it's hindering my weight loss.
What am I even saying ! ugh.....I need to do it now.
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