Wonderful Week

This week has gone so well! I have been doing Weight Watchers for just about one week and let me tell you how fabulous it is. My weigh in's are on Mondays so we'll see where I'm at, but I started at 192...again :(

Last night was our pizza night so we had that and then I had chips, but before dinner I was spot on like always.

I have eggs and toast for breakfast, a salad for lunch, and usually a box meal with some protein added for dinner. I'll have a snack after dinner and that's pretty much my whole day.

Weekends can be tough, but so far so good.

Oh and when I say I'm doing Weight Watchers, I'm doing it a little differently. How I'm doing it is that I believe that: 50 calories = 1 points value. I do not keep my tracker with me. I just assume that 50 cals = 1 pt. So, I will look at the label and do the math. If it's high in Fiber and low in fat cals then I'll go one point beneath the original. This is so much easier for me than having to be so strict with the "rules". I've done WW before and I'm not gonna go back to basics. I'm not doing the momentum plan either because I'm not attending meetings. I'm really on my own. No one prepares the meals for me but me! I'm responsible for what I make and eat and I have to be proud of what I eat. Does that make sense?

I'll be adding more photos like I did last year soon enough :) Have a wonderful weekend!

I Hate This...

I was doing so well and then I feel right off the wagon due to stress. I don't have a job that pays anything because of student teaching so right now I'm so stressed due to that. If I had an income, things would be so much better. Right now I only get about 5 dollars a week from my mom. That's it!! I mean she gives me gas money, but that goes in my tank lol. I know I'm lucky to even be at home and have a roof over my head, but c'mon.

I don't own any credit cards so it's not like I can just go to the store and buy food or clothes. I have to ask for money all the time and being 22 and not having an income makes me very depressed. I never thought that I could be THIS depressed......................ever!! I want to lose weight, but the drive isn't there because of my depression....

help me please....

Doing Awesome

Hey there. I wanted to share my daily plate menu with you all.

http://www.livestrong.com/profile/mellowyellow821/

That is where I track ALL of my food choices :) I'm pretty proud to say that I have stayed under 1500 calories since last Monday. On Friday it says that I only ate 642 and that is wrong. I ate a little bit under 1500 calories but I couldn't find my dinner food on the website. That day I did the calculations in my head and it turned out better than I expected. This was because I went to National Coney Island and ate a Hani....:) Yum!

Anywho, this week went extremely well and I have to say that I feel better about myself. I particularly do not feel good about myself today, but that's the depression talking I'm sure. I just woke up after a 2 hour nap and that's how my Monday's normally go.

This week I plan on having eggs and toast for breakfast. My cereal is good, but I want a lower calorie breakfast so it'll last me longer throughout the day. My lunches are still okay. I usually have a sandwich and some chips. This week I have been measuring out 1 oz of chips to take with me for lunch and it works, but I want to buy a lower calorie type of chip. I saw these new Late Night Jalapeno Popper chips and they were 150 cal for 1 oz. So good!!! My dinners consist of a salad and a smart one's meal such as the fettuccine alfredo with broccoli. So yummy!!! So all in all, I just plan on changing my breakfasts and my choice of chips. I think I'll do better this week.

Also, I feel like I'll lose inches before weight. Not sure, but I know the weight will come off gradually. I'm in no hurry to drop weight. I just want to make this a routine.

Ha!

I never stayed under 1500 calories last week like I said I was going to. I never counted any of my calories last week. I did have an "ah ha" moment though. I posted a video in my youtube vlog about it. I have no summer shorts/capris that fit me this year. They did last year, but not this year. All of this summer weather >70 degrees is making me want to get skinny.

I really want to be down at least 20 lbs by July 1st. 2 lbs a week is gonna be hard to keep up with. I'm sitting at 191 lbs right now so my goal will be 171 lbs by July 1st. It's gonna be hard, but I think I can do it. I'm going to vlog daily because I need some motivation to continue to do this. I want to actually SEE the progress I'm making instead of just talking about what I want to do.

Here's to this week.

Hello

I can't believe it's already April 19. In two more days, it'll be our 4 year anniversary :) How exciting is that?!?!?! :)

Ok.....I have been super depressed lately. Lots of emotional things have been going on in my life and I don't see it getting any better until after graduation. I graduate on June 13th and I hope that's a happy day with my family and I.

My friend Randy (a friend of my fiance's and I's) is also trying to lose 50 lbs. His method is to just eat healthier options and exercise. Seems simple right? He's doing a fantastic job right now and I know he's losing weight.

Me, on the other hand, probably still weigh 190 ish and my emotions are still getting the best of me. Every time I get really depressed, I turn to food :( Like today.....:( awful day ....

I'm using a formula that I mentioned in one of my previous blogs to lose weight (calorie counting) and it says I need to stay under 1500 cals to lose 1 lb a week.

I'm gonna do that this week. :)

Motivation

I just opened up my old food journal from last May (2008) and I am going to be counting my calories again. I just typed out my calorie cycling days and how much I need for each day and I glued it to the inside of my journal to remind me.

I'm gonna start working out at Fitness again. My plan is to go 3x a week and while I'm there I'll do some cardio and then some weights if I feel up to it. I know it will work and with calorie cycling, my weight will come off :)

yay!!!

Failure

I do not have any good news to report. The diet I was on for a week is going to be a no go because it's not something I can do if I go eat outside of my house therefore it would make my eating habits just stay in the home and I want a life!!

Of course I want to lose weight...who doesn't? I'm still struggling with why I want to lose my weight. Is it for me or for my mom? I had this problem when I was living here before I moved out for the first time. Once I was on my own, I became my own individual who knew what I was doing. Now, it seems like I'm back to my old ways....and it's sad.

I'm hoping to get a teaching job this summer and fall :) so here's to getting a new apartment huh? lol :)