What A Week!

This week has been so emotional!!!

For student teaching, we started a new math this week called Connected Math and let me tell you...for sixth graders, I really had to start slow with them because they are not used to this type of math. They have to take notes and graph a lot of things before they move on to their hw. It's very difficult. I will admit that I became a little stressed out this week. I cried.....(after school) and I ended up getting sick on Thursday afternoon. I tried my best, but my throat hurt so bad I could barely speak. I'm getting better so tomorrow will be better...:) I want to be there for my students :)

DIET NEWS: I started a new meal plan last Monday weighing in at 193 lbs. This plan is from when I did Medical Weight Loss Clinic Diet two summers ago and lost a ton of weight in like two months. The only difference is that this time I am not paying to go and I am not on their vitamins or taking their nutrients three times a day. This meal plan is just simply regular food (good food and healthy) and I eat a breakfast, lunch, afternoon snack, and dinner. I will update tomorrow, but it's DEFINITELY WORKING!!! I weigh every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday just so it keeps me on track. Weigh in is tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Because I was so emotional all week, last night (dinner) I wanted nothing but my comfort food. I wouldn't have accepted anything else because I was missing that one thing that made me feel better for the moment.....I said for the moment lol. So I ate off plan just for my dinner only and boy did it catch up with me. Talk about an upset stomach!!!!!!!!!!! I had to leave the restaurant right after eating because yea, enough said lol.

If anyone wants a copy of the diet plan, I will work on it and give it to you. I promise you will see results within the first week!!!!!! :)

more later :) bye

Weekend So Far

Friday was my day to eat a nice dinner and snack with no counting. That's exactly what I did! I had a BWW Chicken Tender Wrap with sour cream and then I had a medium chocolate chip and cherry dipping blizzard from DQ. So yummy!!!

Today, I am right back on track. Although, our groceries are running out today so I have to be careful with the things that I make. Other than that, things are going so great :)

I have been stepping on the scale all week and some days it said 190 and then today it said 191.5 so it must be from the sodium I had yesterday with my Wrap (fries were with that). I should see a drop from 192 lbs by Monday :)

Here's to another great week :)

Day 4

Total Calories today: 1493 :)

I even had 2 slices of pizza AND about 1/4 c. of ice cream for sweetness!!

Go me!

UPDATE: I did weigh myself this morning when I woke up and I weigh 190 lbs. So it's working!!

Day 3

Still going strong and still doing very good. I've had ice cream these past 2 days and have enjoyed it! The only difference is that I measured out a half cup. I'm so proud of myself too!!

Total calories: 1330

I'm really hoping to see a drop in some weight by Monday!! I didn't weigh myself for my start weight, but I probably guessed about right anyways.

I will probably have one more snack or so before bed so I'll update tomorrow if that changes.

Day 2

This is my second time typing this because I lost my first entry.

Total calories today: 1390

I'm doing well still :) I think tomorrow will be just as good!

The Daily Plate

For some reason, I woke up extremely motivated to get back on track today. It's really weird, but I like it. I really think it's because I'm off my period today and I don't feel bloated anymore. I love when that happens lol.

I'm going to continue tracking on the daily plate so if anyone wants to see what I'm eating, head here: ME. Feel free to look at my plate and see what foods I'm eating. My goal is to lose 1.5 lbs a week. I know that's completely doable because I've done it before. I don't know my starting weight, but I really think I weigh 192.0 lbs....yikes!!!!

Wish me luck :)

Start: 192.0

Feeling Slightly Motivated

So, I have been watching some more YouTube videos and I'm slightly beginning to get motivated again. I'd like to make YouTube videos, but honestly, I don't have the time to make a video each week anymore. Student teaching is such a full time position plus more!!

I'm getting to a point in my life that I really don't know how to handle. I remember writing about how my mind still thinks I'm thinner than I really am because I lost weight so quickly and gained it back so fast that my mind has not caught up with my body image. I seem to be opposite of what weight and body image is supposed to be. So, I totally can tell that I've gained weight and I hate it!!! Everytime I look in the mirror, I feel thinner than what my body is showing others so I am disgusted when I see what it looking back at me. Also, I know that I have an addiction to food. I can go on many diets and lose weight...not a problem. My problem is food! I love food too much to want to give up the tastes.

So I was at Border's today and I was looking at many diet books, as usual, and they all had like a specific plan and there was always a specific list of foods that were off limits. I can not handle having any food be off limits for me. I would end up binging on food more because of the absence. Anywho, not sure what's going on with me now because I hate how I feel sometimes, but I really don't want to put the effort into losing weight. My mind is going in so many circles and I don't know what to do.

I might go back to counting calories because that's what worked for me :)....I think once I get out of my parent's house and on my own, I'll end up starting this. Until then, not sure...:(