This is my second time typing this because I lost my first entry.
Total calories today: 1390
I'm doing well still :) I think tomorrow will be just as good!
March 2, 2009
March 1, 2009
The Daily Plate
For some reason, I woke up extremely motivated to get back on track today. It's really weird, but I like it. I really think it's because I'm off my period today and I don't feel bloated anymore. I love when that happens lol.
I'm going to continue tracking on the daily plate so if anyone wants to see what I'm eating, head here: ME. Feel free to look at my plate and see what foods I'm eating. My goal is to lose 1.5 lbs a week. I know that's completely doable because I've done it before. I don't know my starting weight, but I really think I weigh 192.0 lbs....yikes!!!!
Wish me luck :)
Start: 192.0
I'm going to continue tracking on the daily plate so if anyone wants to see what I'm eating, head here: ME. Feel free to look at my plate and see what foods I'm eating. My goal is to lose 1.5 lbs a week. I know that's completely doable because I've done it before. I don't know my starting weight, but I really think I weigh 192.0 lbs....yikes!!!!
Wish me luck :)
Start: 192.0
February 26, 2009
Feeling Slightly Motivated
So, I have been watching some more YouTube videos and I'm slightly beginning to get motivated again. I'd like to make YouTube videos, but honestly, I don't have the time to make a video each week anymore. Student teaching is such a full time position plus more!!
I'm getting to a point in my life that I really don't know how to handle. I remember writing about how my mind still thinks I'm thinner than I really am because I lost weight so quickly and gained it back so fast that my mind has not caught up with my body image. I seem to be opposite of what weight and body image is supposed to be. So, I totally can tell that I've gained weight and I hate it!!! Everytime I look in the mirror, I feel thinner than what my body is showing others so I am disgusted when I see what it looking back at me. Also, I know that I have an addiction to food. I can go on many diets and lose weight...not a problem. My problem is food! I love food too much to want to give up the tastes.
So I was at Border's today and I was looking at many diet books, as usual, and they all had like a specific plan and there was always a specific list of foods that were off limits. I can not handle having any food be off limits for me. I would end up binging on food more because of the absence. Anywho, not sure what's going on with me now because I hate how I feel sometimes, but I really don't want to put the effort into losing weight. My mind is going in so many circles and I don't know what to do.
I might go back to counting calories because that's what worked for me :)....I think once I get out of my parent's house and on my own, I'll end up starting this. Until then, not sure...:(
I'm getting to a point in my life that I really don't know how to handle. I remember writing about how my mind still thinks I'm thinner than I really am because I lost weight so quickly and gained it back so fast that my mind has not caught up with my body image. I seem to be opposite of what weight and body image is supposed to be. So, I totally can tell that I've gained weight and I hate it!!! Everytime I look in the mirror, I feel thinner than what my body is showing others so I am disgusted when I see what it looking back at me. Also, I know that I have an addiction to food. I can go on many diets and lose weight...not a problem. My problem is food! I love food too much to want to give up the tastes.
So I was at Border's today and I was looking at many diet books, as usual, and they all had like a specific plan and there was always a specific list of foods that were off limits. I can not handle having any food be off limits for me. I would end up binging on food more because of the absence. Anywho, not sure what's going on with me now because I hate how I feel sometimes, but I really don't want to put the effort into losing weight. My mind is going in so many circles and I don't know what to do.
I might go back to counting calories because that's what worked for me :)....I think once I get out of my parent's house and on my own, I'll end up starting this. Until then, not sure...:(
January 30, 2009
Stressed Out
Well, just when I thought things were going really good for me, BOOM, I get sick.
I had the flu this past week :( I went to the Emergency room on Monday night because I was really nauseated and was throwing up. I got into my mom's car with a bag to throw up in on my lap and trust me, did I use it! It was awful. The following day I had a slight fever, aches and pains, and I was having hot and cold flashes all day. This is when I knew it was the flu. From then on I took a couple more days to recover so I missed 4 days of teaching :(....I feel so awful for not being there too. It's not that I didn't want to be there.....I was sick :( I had all my plans done though so my cooperating teacher was very well prepared :) I am happy about pleasing her though.
On to my weight loss. Oh boy.....what can I say? The last time I weighed in was a couple of days ago and I think I weighed about 190. So......that's where I've been settled at for months now.
I think that the girls on YouTube who are on Weight Watchers are all very inspirational and I wish I could be like them, but where is my motivation to get going? I feel like I lack motivation to even start. My addiction to food is so bad that I feel like it's hindering my weight loss.
What am I even saying ! ugh.....I need to do it now.
I had the flu this past week :( I went to the Emergency room on Monday night because I was really nauseated and was throwing up. I got into my mom's car with a bag to throw up in on my lap and trust me, did I use it! It was awful. The following day I had a slight fever, aches and pains, and I was having hot and cold flashes all day. This is when I knew it was the flu. From then on I took a couple more days to recover so I missed 4 days of teaching :(....I feel so awful for not being there too. It's not that I didn't want to be there.....I was sick :( I had all my plans done though so my cooperating teacher was very well prepared :) I am happy about pleasing her though.
On to my weight loss. Oh boy.....what can I say? The last time I weighed in was a couple of days ago and I think I weighed about 190. So......that's where I've been settled at for months now.
I think that the girls on YouTube who are on Weight Watchers are all very inspirational and I wish I could be like them, but where is my motivation to get going? I feel like I lack motivation to even start. My addiction to food is so bad that I feel like it's hindering my weight loss.
What am I even saying ! ugh.....I need to do it now.
November 9, 2008
Doing Well
Okay, so everyone needs a new start and I really think I found my new start. I really like how I feel about myself and how I don't feel "fat" when I eat fewer calories. I slip up here and there, but it's life.
Like today for instance. I wasn't at home all day so I had to make smart choices. For breakfast I had a bagel with cream cheese and it was so yummy. For lunch, after moving some furniture into the truck, Randy and I were driving down Gratiot and we decided to hit up Tubby's for lunch. Yea, subs aren't high in calories right?! I was so wrong! My sub was over 900 cals and over 50 g of fat. Yea, I had a high fat count today. Oh well! lol
My calories ended up being my maintenance cals for the day so all is well.
Laura: I do relate to you in a huge way!! If anything, I'll prob be how you are now when I reach my goal. I just figured we could talk about it. No bad feelings whatsoever!!
Like today for instance. I wasn't at home all day so I had to make smart choices. For breakfast I had a bagel with cream cheese and it was so yummy. For lunch, after moving some furniture into the truck, Randy and I were driving down Gratiot and we decided to hit up Tubby's for lunch. Yea, subs aren't high in calories right?! I was so wrong! My sub was over 900 cals and over 50 g of fat. Yea, I had a high fat count today. Oh well! lol
My calories ended up being my maintenance cals for the day so all is well.
Laura: I do relate to you in a huge way!! If anything, I'll prob be how you are now when I reach my goal. I just figured we could talk about it. No bad feelings whatsoever!!
November 6, 2008
Checking In
So, as my last post stated, I made a change!!
I switched to an entirely different website: HERE!!
This website is amazing! It's just like the daily plate, but much better. There are still forums where people can talk and relate to each other, but when you click on a button that says Complete Today's Entry, it says...If everyday was like today's, you'd weigh ______ in 5 weeks. How amazing is that?! It keeps you in check by critiquing how you did for the day.
I am trying to wean myself down off of my ginormous (lol) calorie intake I am used to eating, so I thought I could make it on 1300 calories yesterday...boy was I wrong! I ended up not doing so bad :) I ate 1,854 calories. So, today I'm hoping to get under that by 100 or so. I think weaning myself off slowly is better than going cold turkey. :)
I also started working out. I so did NOT want to start, but I HAD to. So, yesterday I walked for 25 minutes on the treadmill and then I did my weights. Mainly my arms because they are in desperate need for toning. I have that jiggly stuff that old women normally have.....no offense, but I'm 22...my arms should not be looking like that yet!! lol
Well, I hope everyone else is doing well. I am so far and I like it.
I switched to an entirely different website: HERE!!
This website is amazing! It's just like the daily plate, but much better. There are still forums where people can talk and relate to each other, but when you click on a button that says Complete Today's Entry, it says...If everyday was like today's, you'd weigh ______ in 5 weeks. How amazing is that?! It keeps you in check by critiquing how you did for the day.
I am trying to wean myself down off of my ginormous (lol) calorie intake I am used to eating, so I thought I could make it on 1300 calories yesterday...boy was I wrong! I ended up not doing so bad :) I ate 1,854 calories. So, today I'm hoping to get under that by 100 or so. I think weaning myself off slowly is better than going cold turkey. :)
I also started working out. I so did NOT want to start, but I HAD to. So, yesterday I walked for 25 minutes on the treadmill and then I did my weights. Mainly my arms because they are in desperate need for toning. I have that jiggly stuff that old women normally have.....no offense, but I'm 22...my arms should not be looking like that yet!! lol
Well, I hope everyone else is doing well. I am so far and I like it.
November 2, 2008
It's Been A While
Wow. It has been a long time since I've updated. Well, things just continued to get worse with my weight.
Good News: I'm engaged!!! (since Sweetest Day)
Bad News: I've gained weight and this time I can FEEL the weight in new areas. This is the worst feeling ever!
So, I've been eating horribly because of stress with my mom and the wedding. She's trying to tell me what I can/cannot do. Um, who's wedding is this again? Oh that's right...NOT YOURS!!! Ugh...
So, I'm sitting at 190 or more...I have not weighed myself for accuracy. I weighed myself a few days ago at night and was 191 so I'm prob 2 lbs less. I am usually 2 lbs less in the morning.
What I said above about FEELING the weight in new areas, I hate it. It's like when I walk, I can feel the new fat in my hips and thighs. My arms can totally feel it....and I have more of a chin than normal. It's disgusting.
The funny thing is though, when I do go for the fast food to drown my sorrows, I am not thinking this is gonna just turn into fat. I have this realization in my head that I won't gain weight. Isn't that weird? I feel like I'm just eating another meal. I have to be eating over 2500 calories a day even more I'm sure.
I remember telling myself that once school started I'll be okay and start losing weight because I'll be on a routine. No, that changed because my classes are night classes. My Monday night class is from 5 until about 9:15ish. We only get one 25 minute break and the cafeteria is about a 3 min walk plus you have to stand in line for food and then eat/talk with my friends plus get a bathroom break if I'm lucky. It's horrible. I can try to bring my food, but reheating it takes some time. There are only 2 microwaves too so if it's in use, then I'm screwed. ugh...
I'm wearing more and more sweaters to cover up my stomach. At least I am aware of what I'm doing and not in denial about how I look. This blog turned into a pity party didn't it?
One thing that I can not let myself do is become obsessed with losing weight. The main reason why I left youtube was because I got so obsessed with losing weight and everything involving weight loss. First, I deleted my videos from youtube. Then, I just continued watching other people for inspiration. My obsession continued, so then I just stopped logging in to watch weight loss videos. It worked for a while. I still to this day will log on a watch those people whose videos capture me.
I have become way more busier than I was over the summer lol. I have so much homework to do including creating lesson plans and thematic units. I have like no time for anything because when I'm not doing homework or have class, the other two days I'm inside a fourth grade classroom where I'll be student teaching in December.
So that's where I'm at.
Good News: I'm engaged!!! (since Sweetest Day)
Bad News: I've gained weight and this time I can FEEL the weight in new areas. This is the worst feeling ever!
So, I've been eating horribly because of stress with my mom and the wedding. She's trying to tell me what I can/cannot do. Um, who's wedding is this again? Oh that's right...NOT YOURS!!! Ugh...
So, I'm sitting at 190 or more...I have not weighed myself for accuracy. I weighed myself a few days ago at night and was 191 so I'm prob 2 lbs less. I am usually 2 lbs less in the morning.
What I said above about FEELING the weight in new areas, I hate it. It's like when I walk, I can feel the new fat in my hips and thighs. My arms can totally feel it....and I have more of a chin than normal. It's disgusting.
The funny thing is though, when I do go for the fast food to drown my sorrows, I am not thinking this is gonna just turn into fat. I have this realization in my head that I won't gain weight. Isn't that weird? I feel like I'm just eating another meal. I have to be eating over 2500 calories a day even more I'm sure.
I remember telling myself that once school started I'll be okay and start losing weight because I'll be on a routine. No, that changed because my classes are night classes. My Monday night class is from 5 until about 9:15ish. We only get one 25 minute break and the cafeteria is about a 3 min walk plus you have to stand in line for food and then eat/talk with my friends plus get a bathroom break if I'm lucky. It's horrible. I can try to bring my food, but reheating it takes some time. There are only 2 microwaves too so if it's in use, then I'm screwed. ugh...
I'm wearing more and more sweaters to cover up my stomach. At least I am aware of what I'm doing and not in denial about how I look. This blog turned into a pity party didn't it?
One thing that I can not let myself do is become obsessed with losing weight. The main reason why I left youtube was because I got so obsessed with losing weight and everything involving weight loss. First, I deleted my videos from youtube. Then, I just continued watching other people for inspiration. My obsession continued, so then I just stopped logging in to watch weight loss videos. It worked for a while. I still to this day will log on a watch those people whose videos capture me.
I have become way more busier than I was over the summer lol. I have so much homework to do including creating lesson plans and thematic units. I have like no time for anything because when I'm not doing homework or have class, the other two days I'm inside a fourth grade classroom where I'll be student teaching in December.
So that's where I'm at.
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