Feeling Guilty

Today is the 1st of September and I still have yet to find a job. Kids go back to school next week and here I am jobless....:(

I have applied to soooooooo many places included a load in Ohio...:) I am ready to relocate as long as they give me some compensation first to move down there and settle in. I'm ready to work...it's hard just sitting here all day.

Okay, so you're probably wondering why I titled my entry feeling guilty....well....it's because I did NOT go to the gym today to work out. First of all, I woke up at 1 pm. I have been doing that a lot lately....:( Then after waking up, I didn't have breakfast, I ate lunch. Then, I picked up Randy and we went desk shopping because of the computer I now have in my room. I picked up a desk, new mouse, new mousepad, a microphone, speakers, and a pencil holder all for around 100 bucks. It was such a productive day. I was so tired by the time we were done with our 5 hours of shopping that we ordered a pizza and called it a day. Eating wasnt' too bad though.

Here's what I had:

• Santa Fe Style Rice and Beans
• 1/3 of what was left of my chocolate chip and cherry cone dip blizzard
• 4 slices of pepperoni pizza

That's it.....

But I feel guilty because I SHOULD have worked out. I just have to realize that sometimes life gets in the way. I'm making small changes that add up to big successes every day. One day of not working out (besides all the walking I did) will not hurt me in the long run. All it means is that I have to push myself harder when I go on Wednesday and Friday.

However, my eating has got to get better. Today was because we were out and not at home. And that's another thing. I don't eat the same foods as my parents so I always eat something different. I don't eat with Randy because we don't live together and I love eating with him so we normally go out now. :( I love having dinner with him. I feel a sense of belonging and like being our little family when I'm with him. :)

I have my exercising down, now I need to get my food a little bit more handled. I love eating the things I like to eat so I'm going to portion even more by expanding my food and counting calories. My target range is to stick between 1400 and 1600 calories a day. I will track on my blog so if you return to view it, it'll be posted by nighttime. I'm looking forward to seeing more changes ahead.

I need to get my sleep pattern down too....that'll come with a job :)