June Challenge - June 30th

So, the results for June is 4 lbs. My goal was to get down 6 lbs. I missed it by 2 lbs, BUT it's being made up for by losing inches :) So far, I think I'm down 4 inches total for my waist and hips together. I don't remember my bust size before but I'm definitely down on the other two. My measurements are taken with a paper SparkPeople measuring tape that I printed out and stapled together....I do not know how accurate it really is lol

Chest: 43"
Waist: 37"
Hips: 47"

That's my measurements for now. Now that I've written them down and documented them, I'll see my progress from here.

Today was another great day. It was Randy's 25th birthday so we went out to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner. I got the Chicken Tender Wrap with sour cream...yummy! I think overall today I hit 1600-1700 calories :) I did so well today.

Well, heading to bed now.......I hope to lose more soon!

Feeling Great

So, I weighed myself the day after I weighed in at 179.5 and I am now 179.0...that's another 0.5 lbs down :) I am very proud of myself by how far I've come doing this the healthy way.

I am feeling so good that my confidence is growing. That may seem weird to others, but when I am fat, I have no confidence at all. When I feel skinny and am losing weight, my confidence is out the door. I guess it's a great feeling all wrapped into one.

Oh, and with my lifestyle and my job, I am doing the best I can to lose weight. I'm too used to losing quickly so with losing almost 2 lbs in 10 days is hard for me lol. I know, I know, I need to be patient and I am so I just have to take the loss as a loss. I have to keep remembering to continue eating my calories and continue with what I'm doing so I can see a loss. If I slip up and eat too many calories, I won't lose. If I can just keep remembering that, by the 10th day or so, I'll see a great loss.

Another thing: I'm becoming obsessed with the scale again :(. Ever since seeing a loss to 179.0, I have been weighing everyday (since Monday) to see if it's going down. That has to come to an end now!! So, I will not weigh in tomorrow, I will get through tomorrow and that will be an accomplishment :)

:)

Exciting News!!!

Holy crap!!! So, I've been on my period for the last few days and my weight has stayed at 181.0 so I knew that I was retaining my water weight. Well, I woke up feeling extremely lighter than normal and so I decided to step on the scale.

179.5 lbs

OMG!!! My water weight definitely came off!!! Too bad it didn't come off on June 20th for my June Challenge weigh in, but eh, what can ya do?! lol I am sooooooo super excited about this loss of 1.5 lbs and that makes my total to be 10.5 lbs down since January 2008 :) How good is that? Now I stayed between 186-183 for like 3 months because I wasn't doing anything to lose weight, but when June rolled around, I was back on it! I can not believe I'm losing weight the right way!

It's weird because every summer, that's when I try to lose weight, I've always paid for Weight Watchers or some other huge ass expensive diet and I've never tried counting calories. This is so exciting and new and refreshing to know that counting calories and exercise really do work!! There is definitely no secret here lol....just do what you're supposed to and you'll lose weight :)

I'm so excited that this is helping me to stay motivated and continue doing what I'm doing because I know it works :)

Oh, I tried on the same shirt that I wore for New Years and it's looser on me and I'm curvy again!! I love my curves and when I got to 190, they went away :(...I love being sexy :) lol

Take Care :)

Changing For The Better

Okay, so I'm the type of person that has been on this diet long enough to know that if I don't know how many calories are in something, I won't eat it. I usually bring my food everywhere I go so I'm not tempted to eat everything in sight without knowing how many calories are in it. Today was the day when I had to put my lifestyle changes that I've learned to the test.

Let me just say that going out of my house (my comfort zone) to a friend's house for hours is very hard for me to do. Especially if I do not bring any of MY food with me. I go over there and so far I've only eaten breakfast that had 260 calories in it. I get over here and it's lunchtime. I make myself a cheese sandwich and grab a 100 calorie pack of goldfish. Dinner is explained below...:)

So, today, right now, I'm at Scott's house and what does his dad call Scott for? He calls him to ask him to call in for pizza. That is the one thing that I love, but know has way too much sodium for me to have and too many calories. So, I refuse to eat that and Randy and I go to get Subway. I passed up Little Caesar's pizza for Subway. How good was I? Scott and I have a quick little discussion and he says he's not ready to lose weight right now, but he's doing well because he's had 3 slices instead of 4 or 5 slices. Yes, I believe he did a good job, BUT he's been having pizza almost everyday for a week now it seems :(. I really wish he could get his butt in gear and want to lose weight. He has me to help guide him to looking and feeling better, but if HE'S not ready, HE will not lose the weight. I was like that too when I was thinking about losing weight. He'll eventually get to the point where he wants to lose weight, but until then, pizza anyone?

So all in all I have had 1,085 calories and it's only 6:45 pm. Yay!! I now have more than enough for a snack later today when I get home or later here and I feel awesome. Tomorrow is Weigh-In number 3 for the June Challenge and I know I'm not going to gain any weight.

I've been weighing myself daily all week ONLY because I was starting my period and I wanted to see if I gain weight when I start. Did I? NO!! I have been 181 lbs all week long :) I don't think I'll see a gain (hopefully...haven't eaten that much to gain) and I think it'll be the same number. Yes, I'm still bloated, but I know once I'm done, I'll lose the water weight that is sticking to me lol.

I can't wait to get out of the 180's :)

Having A Rough Day

Yep, that's right, I'm having a rough day today...well HAD a rough day today. Every time I'm close to starting my period, usually a day or two before, I get really hungry and depressed. I get to the point where I get sad and I feel like I need to indulge on food to make my problems go away. The old me, which I'm trying to say old because I shouldn't feel like I need food anymore, the old me would just go someplace and gorge myself in some fast food. BUT, I had already had my snack after dinner AND a slice of cake. I had about 1800 calories today and I'm okay with that. I have to go over 2000 calories to be worried because that's my maintenance calories. So anyways, I wanted to go to Taco Bell really badly because I was feeling so down. I did not go to Taco Bell, but I wanted to just so I can fill the void. The thing is though, I didn't want food. Yes, I wanted like cheese, but nothing like from McDonald's or anything. It was a very weird feeling. I was full, but I wanted to eat anyways.

I really feel bad for my boyfriend who is there when I need to talk, but I need to lighten up about this situation. I'm my own worst critic always and I know I'm a hard ass. I just need to lighten up. Whenever he sees me this way, he hates it! I know he's there to console me and help me, but sometimes what he says just makes me even more annoyed because it's not like it's a switch that will turn me into being happy and not hungry. Don't get me wrong, I love my boyfriend and he's there for me no matter what!, but I just feel like it's hard for him to understand....I mean he's 6'4" and weighs 150 lbs. ENOUGH SAID! He's tired of seeing me struggle because he knows how much I want this for myself. He hates seeing me sad and so do I.

I know I want to lose my weight, but because it's so slow, I'm getting frustrated. Every single diet I've been on, I've lost weight really quickly. Now that I'm eating normal, but with smaller portions, I feel like it's taking forever. Am I doing everything I can to lose fast? No. The reason is because if I lose it fast, I will gain it fast. If I cheat and eat something like fast food, I don't see a gain on the scale because my body is already used to that type of food. I don't feel I should deprive myself of things I like.

I'm feeling so many emotions right now and it's hard to sway myself back on track. I am back on track though...I mean I didn't eat anything when I got home. I know tomorrow is a new day and I'm gonna do this, but with it being the time of the month, my hormones make me hungry. It's like I'm never full. :( And another thing, my parents go to bed really early....like around 10ish so I can't sneak downstairs to get food. While I was living with Randy, I could do that, but here, I have to eat everything before they go to bed. In one way it's kinda nice because I won't snack late, but in another way, I hate it because I'm hungry and when I'm hungry, it's very hard for me to go to sleep. :(

Blogging about my day and how tough it really is for me is really helping me. I feel a little bit better knowing that I typed out my feelings. :) I need to get my calorie intake down though in order to lose more weight. I don't feel like I'm gaining or losing. I feel like I'm just coasting still at 181 lbs.

Here's to a better day tomorrow!

Back on Track!

So, today I am back on track :)

Although, this morning, my parents only left me with 1/4 cup of eggbeaters (1 egg) so I only had that with some shredded cheese. All of our bananas went bad so I couldn't have any fruit either. As a result, I was hungry within an hour and a half after eating instead of the 2-2 1/2 hours I usually can go. Today was awesome though. I, so far, have only had about 1300 calories and I worked out on the elliptical for 15 minutes going 1.10 miles. I'm always proud of myself when I can push myself to go the whole 15 minutes. Normally, I want to get off and go home, but I make sure to do at least one mile.

I did another video blog updated the end to the 21 day challenge.

This Friday is June 20th which will be the third installment to our June Challenge videos. I hope to lose 1 lb by Friday, but if not then I know it's because I lost 2.5 lbs during the first 10 days. I always lose weight, then gained half a pound, then lose, then gain half a pound. My body loses inches in between tiny increments of weight loss. That's just how my body is I guess, plus, I'll be on my period, so I hope with all the exercise I get in this week (4 days) I'll lose that 1 pound to add to my loss for the month.

That is all for now.....on to shower.

Feeling Good

Today is Day 21 of the 21 Day Challenge that I was given by a friend of mine. It was given to me so I can re-evaluate some things about my diet and lifestyle. The three guidelines that were given were:

1. stay under calories
   
2. work out 6x a week
3. log everything you eat

These three things aren't hard to do at all. I logged every day, incorporated fruits and veggies everyday (that I could when I was at home and not working), and the working out was just ridiculously hard to do considering the fact that I have to drive a far distance to the gym. I didn't work out at all for the first week of doing the challenge. I started working out twice a week since June 1st for my June Challenge and even that was not enough. I will have to say this though, I enjoyed the challenge a lot and it made me realize that I can lose weight and be healthy. The tougher parts of doing this challenge is noticing that I have to live life as well as "diet".

This past weekend challenged me to no end and I must say that I failed the weekend. Saturday I gave in and was okay with giving in because I have not "cheated" off of my plan of my foods since I started counting calories again. No, I do not feel good about eating bad foods not because I don't feel good, but because I know I have to start fresh tomorrow. It won't be that hard, but the fact that I can't eat cake again for a while kinda bugs me. I have to stay away from my boyfriend's place because he has cake! lol

I will continue to make progress as I go and I will do just fine with the support of my YouTube friends. :)

http://www.youtube.com/user/mellowyellow821