Doing Well

Okay, so everyone needs a new start and I really think I found my new start. I really like how I feel about myself and how I don't feel "fat" when I eat fewer calories. I slip up here and there, but it's life.

Like today for instance. I wasn't at home all day so I had to make smart choices. For breakfast I had a bagel with cream cheese and it was so yummy. For lunch, after moving some furniture into the truck, Randy and I were driving down Gratiot and we decided to hit up Tubby's for lunch. Yea, subs aren't high in calories right?! I was so wrong! My sub was over 900 cals and over 50 g of fat. Yea, I had a high fat count today. Oh well! lol

My calories ended up being my maintenance cals for the day so all is well.

Laura: I do relate to you in a huge way!! If anything, I'll prob be how you are now when I reach my goal. I just figured we could talk about it. No bad feelings whatsoever!!

Checking In

So, as my last post stated, I made a change!!

I switched to an entirely different website: HERE!!

This website is amazing! It's just like the daily plate, but much better. There are still forums where people can talk and relate to each other, but when you click on a button that says Complete Today's Entry, it says...If everyday was like today's, you'd weigh ______ in 5 weeks. How amazing is that?! It keeps you in check by critiquing how you did for the day.

I am trying to wean myself down off of my ginormous (lol) calorie intake I am used to eating, so I thought I could make it on 1300 calories yesterday...boy was I wrong! I ended up not doing so bad :) I ate 1,854 calories. So, today I'm hoping to get under that by 100 or so. I think weaning myself off slowly is better than going cold turkey. :)

I also started working out. I so did NOT want to start, but I HAD to. So, yesterday I walked for 25 minutes on the treadmill and then I did my weights. Mainly my arms because they are in desperate need for toning. I have that jiggly stuff that old women normally have.....no offense, but I'm 22...my arms should not be looking like that yet!! lol

Well, I hope everyone else is doing well. I am so far and I like it.

It's Been A While

Wow. It has been a long time since I've updated. Well, things just continued to get worse with my weight.

Good News: I'm engaged!!! (since Sweetest Day)

Bad News: I've gained weight and this time I can FEEL the weight in new areas. This is the worst feeling ever!

So, I've been eating horribly because of stress with my mom and the wedding. She's trying to tell me what I can/cannot do. Um, who's wedding is this again? Oh that's right...NOT YOURS!!! Ugh...

So, I'm sitting at 190 or more...I have not weighed myself for accuracy. I weighed myself a few days ago at night and was 191 so I'm prob 2 lbs less. I am usually 2 lbs less in the morning.

What I said above about FEELING the weight in new areas, I hate it. It's like when I walk, I can feel the new fat in my hips and thighs. My arms can totally feel it....and I have more of a chin than normal. It's disgusting.

The funny thing is though, when I do go for the fast food to drown my sorrows, I am not thinking this is gonna just turn into fat. I have this realization in my head that I won't gain weight. Isn't that weird? I feel like I'm just eating another meal. I have to be eating over 2500 calories a day even more I'm sure.

I remember telling myself that once school started I'll be okay and start losing weight because I'll be on a routine. No, that changed because my classes are night classes. My Monday night class is from 5 until about 9:15ish. We only get one 25 minute break and the cafeteria is about a 3 min walk plus you have to stand in line for food and then eat/talk with my friends plus get a bathroom break if I'm lucky. It's horrible. I can try to bring my food, but reheating it takes some time. There are only 2 microwaves too so if it's in use, then I'm screwed. ugh...

I'm wearing more and more sweaters to cover up my stomach. At least I am aware of what I'm doing and not in denial about how I look. This blog turned into a pity party didn't it?

One thing that I can not let myself do is become obsessed with losing weight. The main reason why I left youtube was because I got so obsessed with losing weight and everything involving weight loss. First, I deleted my videos from youtube. Then, I just continued watching other people for inspiration. My obsession continued, so then I just stopped logging in to watch weight loss videos. It worked for a while. I still to this day will log on a watch those people whose videos capture me.

I have become way more busier than I was over the summer lol. I have so much homework to do including creating lesson plans and thematic units. I have like no time for anything because when I'm not doing homework or have class, the other two days I'm inside a fourth grade classroom where I'll be student teaching in December.

So that's where I'm at.